Great Cause!
Current mood: optimistic

A friend of mine is raising money for The Leukemia & lymphoma Society this October.  Right now she is in training to walk 26.2 miles for it and she needs help reaching her monetary goal of $3600; she has less than half.  Now I don't normally send out forwards, or requests for prayers, or money or anything like that.  I feel that you know what you believe in, and you do what you can to help whatever you can, but this is a great cause and it is to help children! Everyone knows how I feel about that! So if you can, at least check out the webpage... I promise you its not a scam, I promise you its not a virus or anything like that. I know this woman personally and she is amazing! Her name is Reve Reed and if you can help out in any way it would be great!! She would really appreciate it, as would I.  I have donated and in a few weeks I will donate more because she is doing all the work, I am just going to help in the ways that I can, and thats by donating money.  I'm not trying to pressure anyone into doing anything, but again, this is for a great cause. So please, at least check out the webpage. :) Thanks!

http://pages.teamintraining.org/ok/nikesf08/rreed

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My Celebrity Look-a-likes!
Current mood: adored
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

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Update
Current mood: fabulous
Category: Life

So I thought I would just kind of post a quick little update, let everyone know what’s going on lately for me...
Well to start off with I’m still pursuing the modeling stuff, I’m just not into certain types of modeling... and that seems to be the majority of the stuff that I’ve been asked to do. Oh well, not my thing and I’d much rather never do it than work in the adult industry. But I am still trying. :)
I am getting out soon!! Hopefully very soon, but we’ll see. However instead of moving back to NH as I had originally planned, I’m going to stay here in OK. There are several things behind this decision, but the biggest of them is that I have met someone out here and fallen in love. ♥ His name is Joe and he’s just amazing. :) There really aren’t many other ways to describe him. He actually sees me for who I am, and appreciates me for that person. He accepts my faults (because of course there are many) and loves me despite them. He treats me wonderfully, and he doesn’t even believe that he treats me that great! He’s just amazing... :) He supports any and every decision I make... he gives me the freedom that I so desire, but is there supporting me in every way. :) He’s just great. :)
So where am I going to go to school?? Either Oklahoma State University, or American Military University/American Public University System. OSU is in Stillwater and I qualify for in state tuition because I’ve been here for so long, and then AMU is an online university that I can take classes as I can. They are also shortened classes so they are only 8 weeks long instead of an entire semester. I like the shortened classes better... :) but thats a person choice. Either way I’m still going for the degree in psychology.
I’m moving to a better apartment this coming weekend (because I hate the apartment I’m in now) and I can’t WAIT!! :) My Mother, Grandmother and Aunt Jeannine (all on my Mom’s side) are coming to visit me for my CCAF graduation next month, which means they get to meet Joe and everything! I’m very excited!! My Mother has never seen the home I make or come to visit me... so I’m very excited about this.
After that Joe and I are going to Ohio for 10 days to visit his family and Marie and David. :) Its very exciting because I’ll meet all of his family, and he’ll start the long process of meeting all of those near and dear to me that live nowhere near me (yea thats almost all of you... I know... :( ).
Then I go to CT for Merideth’s high school graduation (which is very exciting) and almost as soon as I get back, Joe deploys... :( so please keep him in your thoughts... he’s security forces so its for quite a bit longer than I deployed for... plus his won’t be nearly as cushy as mine was.. :( I am worried about him, but thats part of the military way of life.
Shortly there after I will probably get out of the military and I’m going to try to get the civilian position of my current job... I’ll basically go from wearing a uniform and getting paid low to getting quite a bit more and getting to wear civilian clothes! lol. Yay! But thats provided I get the job... here’s hoping!
So anyways, thats what is going on with me lately... there is quite a bit going on, and if you want to know more about anything feel free to ask! I’m always willing to chat! :) But anyways, I’ll go for now, so I stop taking up your time. :)
Love to you all and miss you all tons! ♥

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My Special Place
Current mood: grateful
Category: Writing and Poetry

My special place when I was a kid:

I would walk to the end of the cleared part of our backyard to this little wooded area, but as a three year old, its a forest. Once I walk in I can see that there is a slightly beaten path, but its mostly been cleared up to this "boulder" that is sitting there. I'd always climb ontop of the boulder and sit there for a few minutes. Once I climbed down I would continue on with my journey and through the forest. Not far past the boulder the path starts to disappear a bit more. There is still a little bit of a path, but not nearly as wide and not nearly as cleared. Leaves cover the ground, and there are trees all around me. Faintly I can hear the sound of trickling water. As I move further in I see a tree with what looks like a spicket attatched to it. What is that?! A maple tree that someone has tapped into. Cool! Thats how maple syrup is made! I marvel at this beautiful tree, that isn't really as big as I had imagined it would be, but thats ok, because that gives up its tap to become maple syrup. I continue on with my journey and not far from the maple tree there is a little brook passing through the forest. After the brook there is no path at all, so I stop and look into the clear water, seeing the ground beneath it littered with stones. It's so clear that I have to touch it to make sure its really there. The water is silky and cool, it just slips around my fingers. When I get up the sun is lower in the sky. How long have I been there? Mom is going to start to wonder where I am... but I continue on the journey. Where am I going?? Past the brook is a hill. I have to see whats at the top of the hill. Its not too far for an adult, but in the eyes of a child this is going to take forever! I start to climb and I'm making my own path now. Branches of trees are being moved out of the way, twigs are breaking under my feet and leaves are crunching. It's not an incredibly dense forest, however; there are enough trees to make me feel like I could hide away forever in here. As I continue to climb I start notice the trees starting to thin out, I continue on. As I reach the top of the hill now I can see the clearing. It's a feild, open and wide with grass so lush and full of life. I walk into the clearing and become struck by the impulse to lay down. The grass is like laying on feathers. While I'm laying there, comfy as a cat, I look up at the dazzling blue sky. There is not a cloud to be seen and the sky is a very deep, rich blue. When I finally get up I realize it is very late and I need to hurry home. So I start to run through the forest back towards my backyard. Everything is blurring as I run by, I can't make out anything except the blended colors, and then the brook catches my eye, so I leap over it as I'm running clearing it completely. Then I see the maple tree again, I'm back on the path now, almost there. Then I see the boulder and the big cleared path, I keep running, into my backyard and then all the way up to the house. I burst into the kitchen door and my mother demands to know where I've been. "ForestFields" I say. And then I sit down for dinner, smiling, knowing I have a secret special place.

Currently listening : Black Holes and Revelations By Muse Release date: 11 July, 2006

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I was tagged!!!!
Current mood: confused
Category: Quiz/Survey

Here's how you play:

Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random things, facts, habits, or goals about yourself.

At the end choose 5 people to be tagged, listing their names and
why you chose them.

Don't forget to leave them a comment (you're it) and to read
your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
Since you can't tag me back, let me know when you've posted your blog so I can see your answers.

1. At a buffett I can't have anything touching, I can't just totally pile everything up. I'm not sure why, but I guess it goes with that the whole your food can't touch thing, even though really, it doesn't bother me.

2. I don't entirely know what I want to do with my life... I know that it will be somewhere in the field of helping people/working with people, but I don't know what. There are SO many things that really interest me that I have just no clue what I'm going to do. Right now I'm just working towards completing my degree and then I'll be ok.

3. I can't eat an apple whole. I have to have it in little slices... weird huh?

4. I'm a mess, in SO many ways...

5. I'm not 100% that my "mother" is my biological mother. I look SO MUCH more like her sister, and I have so many of her mannerisms that it scares me. It truly makes me wonder.

6. My Christmas tree is not what you would consider a normal Christmas tree... I have 2 ornaments that, honestly, are very inappropriate for it and yet I put them up anyways... and of course now that I have those ornaments all of my other ones are questioned upon because they too can be misconstrued.

7. If I had the opportunity to deploy again while I was in, and go to the same place... I would. I actually truly enjoyed my deployment and found it to be a lot of fun. I know it would be different, but it shows me that I can truly make the most of any situation.

8. I am terrified to get out of the military. There is a huge part of me that can't WAIT to get out, but there is this little voice... and it really is little that is telling me that I need to stay in. Why? I have no idea. I want out, I've wanted out almost since I got in, and yes that was influenced by different things, but there are other factors influencing my decision to get out now, such as going to school full time. Or actually working on the outside. Getting to dye my hair funky colors or get a new piercing. Being able to go on vacation for a weekend and NOT having to tell the people I work with where I'm going and give them the address along with the phone number. Not having to deal with rude pilots because the weather isn't what THEY want it to be. Sorry... I am not the weather GODDESS I just tell you what they have decided to give us today! I am NOT going to tell you that you can fly when you really can't! But nevertheless I am terrified because the military is what I've known for almost 6 years... and I'm just going to leave it behind... start over... starting over is probably the scariest thing... Can I do it? Can I survive?

9. My "special place" is this place that I used to go to when I was a kid. And I will have another blog posted to let you read it if you want... its my special place and I love it...

10. I believe that ghosts are something you have to believe in to see. That if you don't beleive in them they will not make themselves available to you. If you say you don't believe in them, but are afraid of them then they will still appear because you're don't really not believe in them at all. You can't be afraid of something that you don't believe exists, but if you truly do not believe in them you will never see them. Thats like the magic that does exist in the world... it is out there, you just have to believe it is and it will make itself available to you. Maybe not the way you had imagined, but it will.

Who I am tagging:
1. Merideth

2. Matt

3. Kelly

4. Steve Kaufman

5. Erica

Currently listening : A Rush of Blood to the Head By Coldplay Release date: 27 August, 2002

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Perfect....
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life

Thank you Wanton...

" It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out."

Currently listening : Wreck of the Day By Anna Nalick Release date: 19 April, 2005

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Type of Fairy I am....
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Quiz/Survey

Fitting yes??





What type of Fae are you?

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another personality test

My type of soul

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone. Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people. Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run. No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way. You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle. Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings. A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning. You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

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Nanny Peters
Current mood: sad
Category: Life

Last night my great-grandmother on my mothers side passed away. She was an amazing woman who led a very full life. She lived through the depression, she raised 2 children on her own, during times that being a single mother was unheard of. She battled cancer once and survived. The only one out of all 12 of her siblings. She loved to knit and over the course of my years has made me 3 blankets. The last one I got in December from her. My Nanny was an ornery old woman, but she loved all of us dearly just as we loved her. She was diagnosed with cancer again when I came back from Germany in May last year. My first opportunity I went to FL to visit her. She was told that she wouldn't make it through the year. She had given up in the fall, but her faith and will to live had been restored and she made it between 5 and 7 months longer than the doctors ever expected her to. She wanted to make it to one more Christmas with her family. She was terrified of pain, and one of my most vivid memories of her was her telling me that she wanted to die in her sleep peacefully, not in pain because she hated pain. She got her wish, she was in an induced coma, heavily sedated so that she no longer felt pain. I will miss my Nanny so very much, but I gather comfort in knowing that she will never be in any pain again.

I love you Nanny...

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My Johari Window
Current mood: curious
Category: Life

Arena (known to self and others) caring, loving, trustworthy	Blind Spot (known only to others) accepting, cheerful, confident, energetic, friendly, giving, happy, kind, reflective, silly, sympathetic, warm, wise
Façade (known only to self) dependable, independent, sentimental	Unknown (known to nobody) able, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, clever, complex, dignified, extroverted, helpful, idealistic, ingenious, intelligent, introverted, knowledgeable, logical, mature, modest, nervous, observant, organised, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, shy, spontaneous, tense, witty

Dominant Traits

100% of people agree that Turelie02 is caring
60% of people think that Turelie02 is friendly
80% of people agree that Turelie02 is trustworthy

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (20%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (100%) cheerful (40%) clever (0%) complex (0%) confident (20%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (20%) extroverted (0%) friendly (60%) giving (20%) happy (20%) helpful (0%) idealistic (0%) independent (0%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (0%) introverted (0%) kind (40%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (20%) mature (0%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (20%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (0%) shy (0%) silly (20%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (40%) tense (0%) trustworthy (80%) warm (40%) wise (40%) witty (0%)

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Reconnecting
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends

So life is interesting...People enter and leave you life so frequently, especially in my life because I have moved around so much, even before I joined the military. But you loose contact with people...its just a part of life, a part of growing up. The internet has made it possible to find these people so easily! Its neat and so much fun haha!! I have reconnected with several people on myspace over the last couple of months that I never would have thought I would have reconnected with. Some I have contacted, and others have contacted me. Its just so interesting how you think you've lost contact with someone forever and then all of a sudden you have a friend request or a message from someone....just totally out of the blue! And BAM you are back in contact with that person! Life takes funny turns doesn't it? So my count right now of random people that I never expected to talk to again is now up around 16...most of you know who you are, but some of you don't...

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