15 (Part 2)
Current mood: happy
Category: Blogging

More than a year ago I posted a blog about 15 friends.

It's been a year and I've met some new people and gotten to know some others even better and it's time I do a new one (also SOMEONE was bugging me OVER and OVER and OVER again to do this...so I'm tired of hearing her bug me about it so I'm just giving in). This one will have a few more guys in it. And some people some of you don't even know. Here goes! These will be much easier for the person in question to answer and they're in no particular order.

1. Yay! I'm glad we started talking again. It's been ages and ages and ages and even though we don't talk much it's been fun getting to know you as an adult.

2. Jack Black Hummer? You're a dork. But you make me laugh! Miss you like crazy!

3. Yes yes, it took me 21 years, but I did finally give in and buy a Mac. And I'm happy with the purchase.

4. So you coming out here anytime soon to check out our awesome lightbulb? Come on...you know you want to!

5. You're great! I love so much about you and your random tidbuts of information. =D

6. I'm sad how things ended but I'm glad we overcame them and can be friends again. I was a jerk and I know it, I'm truly sorry.

7. Bahaha! Scaring you makes my day! I love you kid! Can't wait to watch you mature!

8. Thanks for being there in my trying time of need! If it weren't for you, I might not be as happy as I am now!

9. YAY! My biggest fan! You rock!

10. It's been so great getting to know you the past few years. I love chillin' with y'all on youth trips.

11. I'm still waiting for that hug! And the time machine. Can't wait to meet you!

12. I'm glad you took over. It's definitely a lot easier with some sort of guidance.

13. You hecka rock! Guard your barracuda and keep up what you're doing. You're going places, I can tell.

14. I don't know if you ever even check this anymore but I'm adding you anyway!

15. And I think you deleted your MySpace so I'm adding you here because you rock and because I can beat you at Super Smash Bros. Also you'll probably see this on Facebook.

Okay! That's it! If you think you know who you are, send me a message. There's also a high chance that a LOT of you made it on the other one (especially if you're a girl).

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"Cell Phone Trick" Rant and Rave (copied from my bulletin verbatim)

Read all these testimonies about people who posted a cell phone bulletin on MySpace. Or just read a few and skip down to where it’s no longer bold.

"phone rang before i even read the third story
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lol as soon as i was done reading it the phone rang but it was my grandma
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kyle springer-
yea my phone rang too
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kellie---omfg yea......
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jake brenner.. DUDE MY PHONE REALLY RANG I M CREPED OUT haha
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mine did too
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My phone really did ring.
that is amazing
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this actually worked....KRIS
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Mine did it tooo!!!!! - Bryan WOW EEEE!!!2@@@
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My phone did to!! =l
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My phone rang while I was reading this
and my phone rang too
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mY cell phone RANG!!!!! ahHHHHHH
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I hate chain letters, but my phone rang and it freaked me out
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my friend joey called me right after i read the last lines in this wierd bulletin....man...creepy....

~jr
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This works so try it yourself
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My phone rang... thats creepy!
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The second i finished it my phone rang
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okay my phone didnt ring but some1 who i havent
talked to in a while contacted me. it really does work,
just believe(yes i kno, corny)
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My phone didn’t ring but I got a text message as soon as I was done reading...really odd!!
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my cell fone rang it was my friend erik thats weird
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wow. my cell phone rang. wierd.
amanda
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this is sooooo weird!!!!
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this is pretty weird!!!
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this really works!
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dis junk is crazi i was readin dis n ma bro jus finish callin me no lies...

::misz precious::
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I think I peed my self that was some crazy stuff

yo it worked
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this really works man my sister called as i finashed reading it.
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That was weird !!Steve B.
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This really works! I sware to God Morgan just called me as soon as i finished! NOT LYING!
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one of my friends called while i was reading this!!! how crazy is that! it works, no lie
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this works!
it does work my sister called right when i was finishing reading it/// it is so freaky!...sarah.h
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wowww ; so when i was reading what people said i got a text messeageee.
and my phone rand like twice from two different peopleee.
weirddd yall. (:
-cybil.
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mine rang and it was my moms friend michell
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my phone rang while i was reading this and after i was done creepy
lol
it works
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OMG it really worked morgan called me right when i started to look at it!!!!! i told her all about it and i thought it wasnt gana work lol!!!!
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man that is just really freakin creepy it actually worked my friend from my old school just called me....
I wasnt thinking it would reallly work at all but guess wha it did....
so im freaked out

This is scary

lets see if it works...."


I’m sick and it’s like 4:30 in the morning here on the West Coast, so this might be due to that, but this is all really funny this early in the morning.

The main bulletin consisted of random stories that had coincidences tied into them. When you finished reading these stories, your phone was supposed to ring or you were supposed to receive a text or someone was supposed to contact you in some way. (I bet people would even consider their parent knocking on their door a success) For instance, one woman wanted a new boss, an hour and 20 minutes later she got the announcement that her boss had been promoted and left the city. One person wanted their dad to be home from war and 30 minutes later the doorbell rang.

First problem is that these stories might just be fictional. We have no idea whether they’re true. They very well could be stories some random guy made up because he was sick, bored and up at 4:30 in the morning.

Secondly all the stories documented simple coincidences and coincidences happen all the time. It’s like when you have a song stuck in your head and then it comes on the radio. It’s probably stuck in your head because it’s played on the radio all the time, but we don’t think that, we think "Wow! I must be psychic!" (or at least I do)

Finally even if all of these people SAY it worked, it’s still just another instance of a coincidence. If you’re a person who’s on MySpace constantly and you talk to a lot of people, chances are your cell phone will ring multiple times a day and if you’re anything like me you’ll get hundreds of texts as well. The odds are in your favor for a call coming in.

The reason so many people testify that it works is because nobody says anything when it doesn’t work, they just go to the next bulletin and get on with their lives. But when it does work, they’re so freaked out that they can think of no better way to spend their time than to post it on MySpace for everyone else to see. (I know, ironic huh?)

The same bulletin has probably been going around for years now and it’s likely that some of those "testimonials" were from the first time it went around. They just slowly kept adding up until it seemed like it had an overwhelming success rate when it’s likely that in the two to three years that MySpace and bulletins have been around, 35 people have had it work.

Don’t put your stock in bulletins based on coincidence. It’s silly and while I wouldn’t consider myself a man of science, it’s illogical. Chances are if you made it this far in my bulletin, you don’t really do that anyway, so I’m probably preaching to the choir, but I don’t really care.

Okay, my eyes are burning, but not from the sheer lack of respect for the bulletin I just so thoroughly criticized, as if it were some holy tradition and God were punishing me for my complete sacrilege. I think I just need to sleep.

On an afterthought, the whole of THIS bulletin was 5 to 10 times shorter than the original SIMPLY because I used one space to separate my thoughts. The original bulletin was probably 10 pages printed out due to the massive and needless spaces inserted between each story.

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Random facts about leap day
Current mood: tired

The reason leap years even exist is because a complete orbit around the sun is not exactly 365 days, but closer to 365 days and 6 hours so every 4 years (6 x 4 = 24), an extra day (24 hours) has accumulated.

A century year (such as 1900 or 2000) is not a leap year unless it’s also evenly divisible by 400. So 1600 and 2000 WERE leap years but 1700 and 1800 WERE NOT leap years. Subsequently, 2400 and 2800 will not be leap years.

Someone who is born on leap day may choose to celebrate their birthday on either the 28th of February or the 1st of March. For legal purposes it would largely depend on the law of the area. In English law, they considered February 28th and February 29th one day, so those born on February 29th was really born on February 28th. So in England and Wales a person born on leap day legally reached the age of 18 or 21 on the 28th.

Oh also, there was a school shooting on February the 29th (8 years ago in fact). But that’s neither here nor there.

I think that’s about all I have in regards to leap day.

Oh and there’s a skunk outside my room, so it smells right now. But that’s really not related to leap day. Other than it happened on leap day.

Currently watching : Kyle XY - The Complete First Season - Declassified Release date: 22 May, 2007

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A Point in Time

There's a point in time in everyone's life where things get to be too much.

Where one is tired of all that's happened before.

Where one is looking for direction.

Where one is no longer looking forward to the future, but rather dreading it.

And if that dreading is not fear of the unknown, but fear of the familiar, that moment can blindside.

So much so that you just have to stop.

Maybe when that point comes, you're doing something particularly normal.

You're reading a book, and you're just getting to the good part. And you have to stop.

You're talking to a friend about something really exciting. And you have to stop.

You're driving in your car, listening to a very good song. And you have to stop.

You gotta put down the book. Continue the conversation later. Pause the song.

It's those interruptions, welcome or unwelcome, that define our lives. It's what we do with those pauses that set the tone for the rest of our future.

Do we stop, think about it for a few moments, and pick up the book again? Or do we actually put more thought into it than that?

Do we look distracted for a moment's time until our friend snaps their fingers in front of our face to bring us back to earth? Or do we say, "I need to get back to you, I'll be back in ten minutes."

Do we listen intently as if something sounds broken in our car or as if we couldn't hear someone in the backseat? Or do we sit there, in awe, almost unable to speak?

Maybe I'm making absolutely no sense. Maybe you've never had such a moment in your life.

But maybe, just maybe, you're reading this and finding yourself nodding your head after just about every sentence. You look at your life and ask yourself, "Where am I coming from? Where do I go from here?" You constantly ask yourself, "What am I here for?"

If any of those things rings true in your heart or your mind than maybe, just maybe, this was for you. And maybe, just maybe, this is your defining moment.

The moment you will look back on for the rest of your life as the crucial turning point.

The point where you finally gave up and said, "Okay God. I'm listening."

Currently listening : The Reckoning By Pillar Release date: 03 October, 2006

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Survey I stole from Lizzie

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
I always feel like that so I think no.

When was the last time you felt unbearably guilty?
Right now?

How is life going for you right now?
Could be better.

When was the last time you held someone's hand?
Depends.

Who is someone you can tell anything to?
Lizabef

Who was the last person you talked to on AIM?
Aryn

Last words you spoke?
"Good how was yours?" to my dad.

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a T?
Nope.

How do you feel about gay marriage?
I feel like the subject's over talked about. There are more important things.

What is the next concert you're going to?
HAWK NELSON!

Can you play guitar hero?
Yes.

Do you like someone?
Yeah.

Are you easily hurt?
Emotionally or physically? Yes either way.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
Warm. Cold is yucky.

Is any part of your body sore?
Yeah. Most of my lower body is.

Who was your last text from?
Jasmine.

What is the last movie you watched in theaters?
Jumper with Meg and Keri.

What do you currently hear right now?
More Than Useless - Relient K

Who did you last share a bed with?
I don't know...

Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
What?

What do you think your best at doing?
Getting in the way of myself.

What do you think of the person you took this from?
Lizzie? Eh, she's okay. Just kidding! <3

What do you currently smell like?
Umm...Colin? I don't know. I'm used to whatever I smell like.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
Hopefully a little younger than 30.

Would you rather watch football or baseball?
I'd rather just sleep.

Missing someone right now?
Yes.

What's the strangest fact about you?
I can't walk out of my kitchen unless all of the cupboards and drawers are closed all the way.

Who is your number one person on your friends list?
My sister.

Do you feel like dancing?
Not to this song, but it's amazing (Which To Bury, Us Or The Hatchet? - Relient K)

How much money do you have on you?
$51 and that's kinda bugging me.

Do you sleep naked?
No.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
Iono. Define why someone shouldn't be on my mind.

Do you burn easily in the sun?
Yeah.

Do you speak another language other than English?
Sign language count?

What made you happy today?
Jasmine speaking Blackexicanasianite.

Who were the last people you went out to lunch with?
Lunch? I don't know...does my mom bringing me McDonald's today count?

What's the most important thing you've discovered about yourself lately?
I'm really insecure.

Where did your last hug take place?
Yesterday when I had to leave my friends. ='(

Did you cry today?
Yeah.

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Soundtrack to my Life

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...just type it in man!
7. Make a new note & then post a link to your note on here as a comment, proving you did this!

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?


Opening Credits: It's Ok - T-Bone

My Choice: Time to Play - Pillar


Waking Up: Faith Like That - Jonah33

My Choice: Wake Me - Day of Fire


First Day At School: True Believer - Hokus Pick

My Choice: Recess - Hawk Nelson


Falling In Love: You Got It - Plankeye

My Choice: The One I'm Waiting For - Relient K


Fight Song: Don't Look Now - Last Tuesday

My Choice: Frontline - Pillar


Breaking Up: Dead Signal 2000 - Training for Utopia

My Choice: Meaning in Tragedy - As I Lay Dying


Prom: I Want to Praise You - Justin Fox Band

My Choice: Gone - Switchfoot


Life: Suddenly - Superchick

My Choice: Only Wanted - Stellar Kart


Mental Breakdown: Me Oh My - Five Iron Frenzy

My Choice: Mayonnaise Taco Monday - Five Iron Frenzy


Driving: Cartoon Network - KJ-52

My Choice: Rawkfist - TFK


Flashback: Get That - Cross Movement

My Choice: Burn for You - TobyMac


Getting Back Together: Day by Day - DC Talk

My Choice: Water Under the Bridge - The Wedding


Wedding: Bring Me Down - Pillar

My Choice: I Will Be Here - Steven Curtis Chapman


Birth of Child: Reflection - As I Lay Dying

My Choice: Until the World - The Afters


Final Battle: This Time I'm Leaving - The Wedding

My Choice: Robbin' You Blind - The Fair Saints


Death Scene: More Than Useless - Relient K

My Choice: American Love - Haste the Day


Funeral Song: Off the Hook - The Cross Movement

My Choice: Love in Your Arms - Eleventyseven


End Credits: Beautiful - Plankeye

My Choice: Soundtrack for Our Movie - Mae

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Distant Lost Causes
Category: Writing and Poetry

Red eyes
White lies
Everyone thinks they know
Look, it's not about that
I've burned that foot bridge
I'm just upset it still shows

Just tell me...
Does it make you feel good?
Thinking you're helping?
Saying you're praying?

If I sound bitter
You're right.
But if I sound ungrateful
You're wrong.

I just don't enjoy the touch of cold steel
Especially when it's burning my wrists

There's no longer really any question
That there's no longer anything more to say

The tears were just enough
To put the fire out in my heart

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When it rains, it pours.
Current mood: depressed
Category: Life

When I was a Freshman in high school a lot of things happened in my life at the same time. My dad started a new job. My mom went back to school. Derek went to South Africa. Chris almost completely stopped eating. And I couldn't take it. It was too much change at the same time. My parents and my oldest brother were on a new adventure and my next oldest brother almost died.

Because of those changes and my unwillingness to reach out to anyone or to ask anyone for help, I started on an emotional train-wreck that escalated exponentially until I was on my knees in my room just this side of suicide. I plunged deep into internet addiction that brought on other addictions. The whole time I was rotting away in my room and nobody knew.

Simply because I didn't say a thing.

I'm not going to lie, I'm in a bad place right now.

I found out some news on Tuesday that to some sounds great, to some makes sense and to some completely devastates. Unfortunately for me, I happen to fall into all three categories.

Honestly, I could handle that. That news on its own would not have threatened my sanity. But then last night, in a completely unrelated topic, some more stuff surfaced that even though right now has had very little effect on my home life it has the potential to completely mess me up even more.

I have this sense. This sense that something else is going to happen. And it's taking everything that's inside me to fight this sense, but it's strong. Stronger than mostly anything I've ever felt in my life.

I know that I can't live or operate out of fear. But it's hard. It's going to be a daily struggle to leave the fear of the unknown, the unseen and the unformed behind me. But I have to keep pushing forward.

Right now I'm choking back tears. I'm fighting the urge to sob uncontrollably. I'm trying to ignore my fears. But the more I think about it the more one things clear: something's going on. I don't know what it is. But I can feel it.

I'm sorry to be really vague, I'm sure some of you know some of this and none of you know all of it, but I'm still in denial. I'm still waiting to wake up in the morning realizing it was an elaborate dream. I'm waiting for April 1st to come around and waiting for the people to pop out of the bushes and yell, "APRIL FOOLS!" but like that feeling of pending doom, I have a feeling it's not going to happen.

Also I don't want to be getting any messages asking if I'm thinking about suicide. I don't want to be hearing any talk about me sounding suicidal. I don't want anyone to misinterpret this as something deeper than it is. Yes, I'm depressed. But no, I'm not in danger of myself. This is the best way I know how to cope and if I have to, I'll move this to a private place where only I can see it, but I was hoping to be able to share this particular post with my friends.

Currently listening : I’m Only a Man (CD/DVD + 5 bonus tracks) By Emery Release date: 02 October, 2007

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The problem with MySpace
Current mood: aggravated
Category: MySpace

There is much good about MySpace.

I've kept in touch with countless friends (okay, 4) that I don't really talk to anymore in person but I see their name in a MySpace bulletin and I drop them a comment.

I'm able to show you guys some cool things (with NoRepMagic).

I get the chance to support the bands I like (Especially The Fair Saints and Even Heroes Fall) and spread their music around by adding them as a friend.

I can update all of my friends at the same time with one click. And I can let them know when I'm not doing great, which I have.

But MySpace has one problem.

It almost encourages immorality.

Before I keep writing, let me let you know that this is in no way an inspired piece by looking at one particular profile. I thought of this as I was sitting in my boss' office trying to stay awake.

I cannot browse MySpace without seeing something I wish I hadn't. Someone cussing in their profile. Some picture of people partying. Victoria showing off all her Secrets.

And frankly, it sickens me. I don't even kind of enjoy it.

The ability to control what your profile says and what you say about yourself in the profile is dangerous. I don't even need to mention the countless sexual predators that have destroyed lives because of their sick, twisted, perverse minds. But not only that because you can control so much of what you write, you have the opportunity to be completely fake.

A little more than half a year ago I pulled an April Fool's Day prank. I've never been one to do that, but hey, I was bored. I stayed up all night May 30th (or 31st...*counts on his knuckles* 31st. Right.) and I completely redid my MySpace being very careful to keep the original content preserved so I could change it back. I changed the layout. I changed the pictures. I hid the blogs, hid the comments, hid the friends, hid the albums. I did everything I could to make it seem like "Colin" was no longer the owner of this profile. It was now "Deb" and her country loving, Nikolas Sparks reading, Notebook watching self. Because I did this, people saw the profile suddenly on their MySpace and deleted me off their friend's list.

I was able to accomplish all that because I'm real. The things I post on my MySpace, the pictures, the comments, the blogs, the videos. It's all me. I'm not pretending to be someone else. So when I do pretend to be someone else it's clearly not me.

If you're being fake on MySpace (you know who you are...I don't know who you are...I'm not pointing fingers) how do I know you're being real in real life? If I see a page filled with cussing and see you at church the next morning, which one's real? If you're posting bulletins about having sex or partying all night and then I talk to you the next day where you sit and condemn those kinds of behaviors you're either have multiple personalities or you're a hypocrite.

Now just so you don't feel that I'm sitting on top of a high horse or judging you all from heaven (only God can judge man since He is the only truly perfect person) I'll let you in on a little secret. I'm not perfect. I struggle with a lot of things.

I'll give you a very minor for instance. I used to cuss A LOT when I was in junior high and high school. I had a very filthy mouth. I don't even know why, I thought it made me look cool. Then one day (literally overnight) I decided I was going to control my tongue a little better. And I did.

Recently I've had some problems cussing again, but never around other people. When I'm by myself and something goes wrong it slips occasionally. It's not bad because my life is not completely wrapped around four letter words, but it's not especially good either, I don't need to be cussing, there are better ways to express myself.

Now I was real and upfront with you guys. You won't see me typing out any cuss words because I've learned to control myself but I wish I didn't cuss at all, whether it was screamed at the top of my lungs or in my brain, it's completely unnecessary.

The point is, and I've gone a way far way from this so I'm trying to bring it back, MySpace encourages that type of stuff. And until we personally do something about that one by one we're just going to be living in a society where we never know who the real person is.

If your MySpace doesn't reflect who you are in real life then I find it really hard to trust you.

I hope this all made sense and I hope that I was clear that I'm not pointing any fingers. But, if it does feel like I'm pointing fingers, perhaps you need to take a look at your MySpace page to see why you think I'm speaking directly to you.

Thanks and I love you all,
Colin

P.S. As an extra note I want to let you all know that this is not my way of telling you I'm getting rid of my MySpace. I talk to a few people on here, I think MySpace is great but not as a master. It's a better tool. I intend to make my MySpace reflect my life and my life to reflect my MySpace.

Currently reading : Hiding the Elephant: How Magicians Invented the Impossible and Learned to Disappear By Jim Steinmeyer Release date: 25 August, 2004

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At the risk of sounding emo...

I'm posting this song at the risk of sounding emo.

Might Have Ben Hur
Switchfoot

Everything I know
Tells me she's everything
That I could hope for
Everything I know
Tells me I can't let her walk away

I took my time to find the words
I hope she'd feel the same

'Cause I want someone to share my smile
To share the pain
To be there when the sea turns gray
To share the joy
For better or worse

{chorus}:
And I thought that it might have been her
I thought that it might have been her

Wonder if she knows
The way I saw her soul
Light up my life
Wonder if she knows
of the pain I feel tonight


Great song, it's from their first album (Legend of Chin) so most people haven't really heard it.

Currently listening : The Legend of Chin By Switchfoot Release date: 17 June, 1997

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