Back when I knew it all- Montgomery Gentry’s new CD
Current mood: fabulous
Category: Music

The new Montgomery Gentry Cd, "Back when I knew it all" hit stores yesterday. I was one of the lucky ones who pre-ordered my copy from their website and it arrived a week early. For the last week it has been the only CD i have listened to. If you do not have your copy yet GET IT!

It is true that the guys have never put out a CD I did not love, this one is the best of all. It reminds me of the early days when they played the bars. It is upbeat, great music and lyrics and one of those CD's that makes your day better just by listening to it.

Eddie and Troy have never failed to entertain me and it is not secret I feel they are the best act in country music and have been for years. Ok so they have been my favorite since the first time I entered a bar (way back when) in Kentucky and heard them playing (at that tim John Michael was with them). I was hooked and have been ever since.

This CD reminds me of their early stuff, but still has the greatness that has made MG the group that fans loves. They enjoy what they do it and it comes across in their music.

Like I said earlier if you do not have this CD yet, GET IT you will not be disappointed. It is the best CD I have heard by any artist in along time. There is not a single cut on the entire disc that is not great. Not often do I get a CD in which every single cut is wonderful, this one is just that. Great from start to finish!

To Eddie and Troy, Thank you for again amazing me and keeping me entertained no matter what I am doing. Rush hour in Las Vegas is suddenly not so bad as long as I can listen to the new CD.

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ACM Weekend
Current mood: happy

Well it looked as if I was going to miss all the fun of the ACM's when I became seriously ill the Wednesday before. However, the fates were being nice and I was able to attend the Charity Harley Ride and the great fun on Fremont Street. This year as always it was so much fun. However, due to still not feeling 100% and a boss who doesn't understand I need the whole weekend off. Saturday was the only day I got to enjoy the fun that is to be had when country takes over Vegas.

First up the harley ride. It is hard to believe that five years ago there were barely one hundred bikes. This year there were over 2,000 and it is all for charity. Eddie and Troy of Montgomery Gentry hosted the event this year. Thankfully I was able to slow Eddie up long enough for a picture. Troy on the other hand I could not slow up or even a second. Oh well there is always next year.

Once the ride was over and the riders arrived at Fremont Eddie and Troy took the stage. My one complaint they were not given long enough time to entertain us.But then again if I had my way they would have been on stage all day and night. Love the new stuff and can't wait for the CD to come out next month.

PSSST! who do I have to talk to in order to get a date for the Toby Keith, Montgomery Gentry concert coming to Vegas?

Heidi Newfield as always was as charming and friendly to the fans. In fact when they were gathering the celebrities on stage they had to call to Heidi more than once who was busy with her fans. Later on Fremont she did a 45 minute set that was pure amazing. If you truely want to listen to a voice that is distintiful soulful and just beautiful and also be entertained by a high engery show go see Heidi! You won't be sorry. As much as I adore Montgomery Gentry I have to admt Heidi was the best performance of the day. *(sorry guys)*

Poor Teddie was home with the flu and did not get to see Heidi, but she sent him home a get well soon note. Hopefully she will come back soon so he can be as entertained by her as the rest of us were on Saturday. But then as far as Teddie goes, the love of my life, he would be entertained by Heidi if she simply walked out on stage and smiled at him. (Laughs). He would melt on the spot. But hey I don't mind, he has good taste. Not to mention he knows where Eddie is concerned not only do I love the music but I could sit and stare at him all day too.

Ira was amazingly funny and great to talk to. He is a definiate entertainer and I look forward to hearing new stuff from him. Like his single beer or gasoline. A great song!

Richie McDonald's bike was my faviorite, very patriotic and I really liked his music. I do believe he is going to have no problem what so ever being a sucessful solo artist. And very fan friendly.

James Otto was also fun and entertaining. He has been a part of the harley ride since it began five years ago and this year he returned with a number one single. He was great on stage and it is fun to look back over the past five years and how much he has grown as an artist.

I could go on an on, it was amazing and wonderful and next year I refuse to work Friday, Saturday, Sunday or Monday. I will not miss a second of it next year

Before I end this I have to say half the fun of ACM weekend is seeing old friends and sharing the entire experiece with them. Michelle it was a blast hope to do it again soon! Thankfully nothing came along that took away from the fun and excitment of the weekend. Hey sometimes our prayers are answered

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Fool me once maybe. Twice Never
Current mood: aggravated

You know the old saying fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. Thankfully, I realized the lies and deceit of one before it reached the twice for me. However, I know others who are not so fortunate. Here is the problem with people who lie, use and steal from people, sooner or later the people start talking to each other and well stories just do not add up. Or take me for example. I hear things and never take them at face value if they just do not sound right. I start to dig and then I dig and when I hit something that is totally off of the original version I was told then my temper flares. Yet, I give that person a chance to explain. I point out things do not add up. In my experiences those who truly realize the errors of their ways will want to explain the reasoning for the lies, those who have no intention of ever admitting what they did get angry and very upset that someone dare not believe them. If this is sounding familiar than you know who you are! And for the person be warned, you have the opportunity to tell those who have been conned, scammed and stolen from that you have played on their sympathies or even the truth that you used them and then make arrangements to start paying back the people you owe. Who by the way I know is way larger than the two I am sure you are thinking I am talking about. And then follow through with the repayment arrangements, because civil law suits are not only regarding the amount owed by also the court fees, which can get expensive and can be taken out of paychecks which means no more traveling around the country to concerts for a while. Oh wait you do that on other people's money, I keep forgetting.

Yes people I am beyond livid at this point. A lie is a lie, but when it compounds and grows and festers until people are losing hundred of dollars it gets old. No I did not personally lose anything other than time invested into a friendship which in some ways is more hurtful than the taking of money. And people wonder why I have few friends. This is a good example of why. At this moment I will not post names and pictures however, if restitution to the financially harmed is not made then within a week to two weeks I will warn the world of this woman's scam! But let me explain so far what has been done, said and the truth uncovered.

First this person claims to have brain cancer, but apparently a few years ago it was some other form of cancer, and she was dying. The medical research she did was good as she could give most of the details of the type of tumor she had. Then there were surgeries and chemo, yet never any hair loss. She often needed money for the co-pay on insurance to cover the surgeries she needed or she would die. Only problem is that there is no medical records what so ever of this person anywhere in the state she lives in. (I do so like being able to locate information such as this). Not to mention just last month, the tumor was somehow just gone it was a miracle. But then two weeks ago it was back and the first request to me for money for the co-pay came. Granted by this time I started smelling something as wrong so we did not send it. Then she told a mutual friend she had the surgery and was recovering in the hospital. Yet, I spoke to her on the phone that same day and she needed the money to have the surgery, but shhhh don't tell the friend she really had not had it yet because she told the friend she did because there was an argument over a car which belonged to the friend who wanted her car back.

Then loan companies and police become involved and the surgery is suddenly laser surgery but she told me it was risky so she wasn't sure she was going to have it oh and she didn't have the co-pay so she couldn't have it, so she may as well come from Nashville to Vegas for ACM week. Umm dumb question would the money spent for air and hotel and awards tickets not be better spent on a life saving surgery?

Oh and then there is the computer that was borrowed from the same friend that has not been seen in months and new excuses arise as to why it has not been returned, along with a new television set and a gas credit card that was maxed but the friend never used or even saw.

Oh but wait it gets better people! This person also claims to have adopted a child. Yet this is a child NO one has ever seen, and this girl lived with the mutual friend for a while. When questioned the child was always here or there including in famous country music singers care. Funny often these entertainers were on the road, what were they taking her child? I think not. Oh and the story we were told was that her brother had a child with a woman and they were not mature enough to raise the child so she adopted the child. Yet, just a few months ago she was going to court to fight the brother for custody of the child. Dumb question but if a child is adopted the natural parents have no rights and hence no court battle. Yet, a person who was a "friend" of this person a few years ago was told the child was adopted because the brother was in prison and the mother died in a horrible car crash. Humm something sounds fishy to me. But wait it gets even better.

Then I get a message a month or so ago that this person had been arrested for failure to pay child support for the twin. Red flag, what twins? She needed bail money. Again we didn't bite. Not to mention there is no such arrest record anywhere in the state of Nashville for this person during that time. However when she was allegedly released from jail I asked her about the twins? The response I got was that her parents had died years ago and she at the tender age of 15 had raised her siblings (there is something like 6 or 7 of them) and had packed them in a car in California and driven them by herself to Nashville where she had raised them (more on that later). And the twins were apart of this sibling group who for some reason the state had taken years and years ago, and were now hitting her for child support. PROBLEM HERE FOLKS! If is a sibling than another sibling is not responsible for child support, second problem if child protective services has removed children from your care, you can not then adopt another one, it's not allowed. Something about a national registry that has your name that has to be checked before adoption is permitted. Damn don't you just hate it when someone knows the law?

Now back to this poor pitiful story about the driving by herself from California to Nashville with her siblings at the tender age of 15. There is another woman she lives with whom she calls mom. We have established its not the real mom, but the one who took her and the siblings under her wing when they were young. Yet during a dinner conversation in which both were present this mom talks about driving with all the kids from California because the girl was too young to drive. HUMMMM something is not adding up.

Are you all still following this so far? Yep, someone thought I and others were really stupid!!! Now here is some other things we have discovered during our background gathering information. This person and her "mom" have rented numerous placed and skipped out on the leases. She has borrowed large sums of money from people and never paid back. Oh and one of my favorite bids to get money was that she had been in a terrible car accident and had punctured a lung but two days later was able to travel two states away for a concert with no visible marks of an accident on them.
She also has people such as Faith Hill on her speed dial as they are really good friends etc etc. I saw into this one along time ago. Because when trying to use a cell phone you have to hit the dial button to talk to someone. HUMMM trying to impress people with who they know but live in hotels for a living/
Oh wait there is more. She is a photographer for curb records and will even show you pictures in magazines of artists and claim she took the picture. Yet, magazines have this funny little thing with crediting the photographer and letting others know who took the picture. Funny her name is never there. This one your going to love if you have any common sense. She sells her rights to curb records and that is why her name is not listed. Then why is someone else's listed. They do not say owned by curb records they list a photographer. Which is against the law even if the original photographer gives up their rights to the image. Again don't you hate it when someone knows the law.
Last but not least she is a high school psychology teacher but never teaches in a school. Instead she works as a waitress in a truck stop or various other low paying jobs. The reason for this is she took a leave from teaching due to the cancer and now has to wait for so many months to go back to it. UMM this country is hurting for teachers and that bullshit about that is just that bullshit I checked.

Do I really need to go on or do you get the picture? As I said this person is a con artist and a thief and a liar and I am saddened to admit I once considered a friend. Now I consider this person in need of serious help before her lies catch up to her and land her in jail for real. After all fraud is against the law in most states.

Again if this sounds familiar than you know exactly who you are, and I am gathering information to ensure that I warn others before they are taken in by the sad stories.

Oh yeah one last thing the parents are alive in well in California. Won't it be interesting to see what they have to say?

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New Writing Ventures

My current project involving Megan and Nicolas and the imaginary world of vampires and other creatures of the night has had to be put on the back burner for now since a great project has fallen into my lap and it is a story that has to be told.

A man here in Las Vegas spent ten years on death row for a crime he did not commit. The Nevada Supreme Court over turned his verdict due to the police and an informant lying on the stand. Then the state in their wisdom had the man sign a "special" plea agreement where he agreed not to sue the state for his time spent on death row. Reading the court documents and all the information there is a lot fishy in the reports. Therefore I am combing through the evidence, talking to all parties involved and writing his story.

It is time consuming but fun at the same time. There will be a lot of work involved including having evidence re-examined and forensics not available in the 80's done.

Make not mistake the man is by no means an angel but he did not commit the murders, and in the end the state knew that they were wrong but convinced him that the only way he was getting out of prison was to sign the plea.

Now the work of locating the informant all the witnesses, the former detectives and all the lawyers involved to get their version of events. In one court decision the Nevada Supreme Court even states the detectives failure to reveal information is at best the detective having a really bad lapse in memory and at worst perjury.

The officers also received viable tips regarding two other suspects they never admittedly followed up on because they believed they had their man.

Just a peak into the mess. The victims were stabbed numerous times. One of them over 40 times hitting at least one major artery, but the man who was convicted of the crime had two small droplets of "human" blood on his jacket and pants. Luminol had to be used to identify the blood, but then due to the luminol the blood could not be typed to see if it belonged to the victim. Today's technology can do that so if we can get the NLVPD to release the clothing there is a lab willing to do the test. However strangely evidence pointing to the man's innocence was "misplaced" and has never been found. So lets hope this evidence is still be stored properly as it is supposed to be as required by law.

Again, the man's story needs to be told and with any luck the real killer will finally be revealed and he will be punished for what he did.

More later as things develop.

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The Giants, NFL and my theory and outlook
Current mood: excited

The Giants did it. They did what few thought they could do. They won the Super Bowl. The deflated the ego's of the Patriots and showed the world that Miracles do happen.

I have heard Eli Manning referred to as the Miracle worker and I have to agree with that statement. In a play we will see over and over for years and still be amazed by it is when Eli was cornered by Patriots rushers Thomas, Seymour and Green, and it appeared he was going down. They had him when suddenly from out of the middle of the Pat's Eli emerged settle in on his feet and throw a 32 yard pass to Tyree. The crowd cheered, I yelled and screamed in excitement at the television. In that instant Eli Manning came into his own. No longer the baby brother of Peyton, He grew up, he was confident, he was eager to win, and he was not intimidated. Cut to the shot of Peyton cheering his baby brother on from the box and realize even Peyton was impressed with his brother's skill in the Super bowl. I can not wait for next season to see how much more Eli will have matured and how well he will play.

For those who have not figured it out I am a Manning family fan. I adore that entire family. Two of the Manning boys have amazing skill on the football team, and off they are not arrogant, but are polite and give back to their communities. Mr. and Mrs. Manning did a great job with all three of their boys. They allowed each to grow into the people they are today, and taught them to be humble, and not rude.

Now, onto the Patriots. It is no secret I wanted them to lose, but I have wanted that all season. I will give them credit they had a great season. What I do not like, in fact can not stand about them is their attitudes and egos. They pranced and showcased and gloated each and every time they did anything. Granted the Giants did so yesterday and had every right to do so. The difference is that other teams including Giants did so without being cocky, arrogant and down right rude.


Belichick leaving the field with one second left was poor sportsman ship. I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt and believe he thought the game was over. When it was realized it wasn't, he should have remerged on the field to let the Giants have their moment in that last second. He took that from them and on top of that he should have been there for his team. He was not the only Patriot upset they lost. He is the coach and should have taken the loss with style and remained with his team. Perhaps he took a page from Randy Moss' book. After all didn't Moss do the same thing when he was a Viking in 2004 when the Vikings lost to the Redskins?

In my opinion it was not only disrespectful it made Belichick appear to be a very sore loser. As if he can dish it out but when the shoe is on the other foot he chooses to run and hide in the locker room.


He should have been there for his team. He was not the only Patriot upset they lost. He is the coach and should have taken the loss with style and remained with his team. Perhaps he took a page from Randy Moss' book. After all didn't Moss do the same thing when he was a Viking in 2004 when the Vikings lost to the Redskins?

In my opinion it was not only disrespectful it made Belichick appear to be a very sore loser. As if he can dish it out but when the shoe is on the other foot he chooses to run and hide in the locker room.

Next it appears that the Patriots Defense end Richard Seymour due to statements made to the Giants offensive players that they "should be ready to go home" before their last drive. Reports state that the statements made bothers at least two giants players even after the game. Granted football teams taunt each other during a game, however I wonder what occurred that was so unacceptable that it bothered the giant's players even after they won? There is taunting and teasing and then there is simply unprofessional and egotistical behaviors.

Next up not only did Belichick leave the field before the end of the game, he decides to give his post game interview during the middle of the trophy presentation. What is up with that? In other Super Bowls the losing team's coach gave the winning team there moment in the spotlight. There time to celebrate, but not Belichick, he decided to try yet again to steal the spotlight. Perhaps it was not intentional but simply was not well thought out. Either way more professional consideration and grown up behaviors are called for in an NFL coach.

And now Moss and Brady both have pulled out of the pro-bowl due to "ankle injuries" Mind you I am not a Brady fan, in fact I do not like him at all, but he was witnessed limping after the super bowl and he did in fact have the ankle wrapped two weeks prior and he did take some good hits during Sunday's game. However I can not help but wonder if he had walked away the victor would the ankle be enough to pull him from the pro-bowl? And Moss, when did he hurt his ankle? I must have missed it.

Now before you go thinking I am simply trashing the Patriots I am not. I do not like the coach's attitude and Brady's over sized ego. And can say that the Patriot's corner back Asante Samuel appears not to have the over sized ego of others on his team. He said in an interview " We conquered the regular season. We conquered the playoffs. What does it mean if you do not win the Super Bowl? It doesn't mean anything." A very humble statement from a player who was just as disappointed at their loss as the rest of the team. Yet, he did not make excuses for the loss or insult the Giant's in doing so. Perhaps he can teach some of the other places a thing or two about class. Because at this stage without all the information regarding "spygate" being revealed, and I like to believe that cheating was not going on, then the Patriots had a great season, and have done what others hope for in a regular season. They simply did not take it all the way to the big one, but it does not detract from the season they had. And that is a lot for me to say because admitting anything good about the Patriots is not easy.

Enough said, I now enter a period of mourning. I love football. During football season, I live breath and eat the game. Now, it is gone, like the loss of a dear friend and I am left counting the days until the next season begins. My hope is that it is as exciting and riveting as this year has been. And next year, can I please just work up the nerve to go put my bet down on the game. If I had this year I would have close to half a million dollars, so yep I am kicking myself for that one.


To Mama and Papa Manning, Two Superbowl MVP's in two consecutive years. That his historical and has never happened before in NFL history. I guess it is a good thing Cooper doesn't play football or the other teams would have to worry about a three year Manning MVP. Oh wait since Eli got it this year next year it is Peyton's chance again.

Eitherway when it all starts back up, I will be my usual addicted self and root for the Colts and the Giants just has I have long before they were Super Bowl Champs.

To all the NFL players, coaches and staff, including the Pat's. Thanks for a great season.

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The Giants, NFL and my theory and outlook
Current mood: excited

been there for his team. He was not the only Patriot upset they lost. He is the coach and should have taken the loss with style and remained with his team. Perhaps he took a page from Randy Moss' book. After all didn't Moss do the same thing when he was a Viking in 2004 when the Vikings lost to the Redskins?

In my opinion it was not only disrespectful it made Belichick appear to be a very sore loser. As if he can dish it out but when the shoe is on the other foot he chooses to run and hide in the locker room.

Next it appears that the Patriots Defense end Richard Seymour due to statements made to the Giants offensive players that they "should be ready to go home" before their last drive. Reports state that the statements made bothers at least two giants players even after the game. Granted football teams taunt each other during a game, however I wonder what occurred that was so unacceptable that it bothered the giant's players even after they won? There is taunting and teasing and then there is simply unprofessional and egotistical behaviors.

Next up not only did Belichick leave the field before the end of the game, he decides to give his post game interview during the middle of the trophy presentation. What is up with that? In other Super Bowls the losing team's coach gave the winning team there moment in the spotlight. There time to celebrate, but not Belichick, he decided to try yet again to steal the spotlight. Perhaps it was not intentional but simply was not well thought out. Either way more professional consideration and grown up behaviors are called for in an NFL coach.

And now Moss and Brady both have pulled out of the pro-bowl due to "ankle injuries" Mind you I am not a Brady fan, in fact I do not like him at all, but he was witnessed limping after the super bowl and he did in fact have the ankle wrapped two weeks prior and he did take some good hits during Sunday's game. However I can not help but wonder if he had walked away the victor would the ankle be enough to pull him from the pro-bowl? And Moss, when did he hurt his ankle? I must have missed it.

Now before you go thinking I am simply trashing the Patriots I am not. I do not like the coach's attitude and Brady's over sized ego. And can say that the Patriot's corner back Asante Samuel appears not to have the over sized ego of others on his team. He said in an interview " We conquered the regular season. We conquered the playoffs. What does it mean if you do not win the Super Bowl? It doesn't mean anything." A very humble statement from a player who was just as disappointed at their loss as the rest of the team. Yet, he did not make excuses for the loss or insult the Giant's in doing so. Perhaps he can teach some of the other places a thing or two about class. Because at this stage without all the information regarding "spygate" being revealed, and I like to believe that cheating was not going on, then the Patriots had a great season, and have done what others hope for in a regular season. They simply did not take it all the way to the big one, but it does not detract from the season they had. And that is a lot for me to say because admitting anything good about the Patriots is not easy.

Enough said, I now enter a period of mourning. I love football. During football season, I live breath and eat the game. Now, it is gone, like the loss of a dear friend and I am left counting the days until the next season begins. My hope is that it is as exciting and riveting as this year has been. And next year, can I please just work up the nerve to go put my bet down on the game. If I had this year I would have close to half a million dollars, so yep I am kicking myself for that one.


To Mama and Papa Manning, Two Superbowl MVP's in two consecutive years. That his historical and has never happened before in NFL history. I guess it is a good thing Cooper doesn't play football or the other teams would have to worry about a three year Manning MVP. Oh wait since Eli got it this year next year it is Peyton's chance again.

Eitherway when it all starts back up, I will be my usual addicted self and root for the Colts and the Giants just has I have long before they were Super Bowl Champs.

To all the NFL players, coaches and staff, including the Pat's. Thanks for a great season.

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The fire in Las Vegas

Since just about everyone I know has contacted me today in regards to the fire on the strip here and the incorrect national news report I am letting everyone know first off, no one here at home was affected and were all safe and sound, though we could see the smoke and flames from our home. We are well away from the strip but the first was 32 stories high so just about anywhere in Vegas you could see it.

Now to correct the national news stories.
The fire at the Monte Carlo was on the exterior it started on the roof, not on the ground floor as some reports stated. It is unsure at this time how the fire started.

There were no major injuries and no deaths. 15 people including some fire fighters were treated for smoke inhalation and that was it.

No one was jumping to their deaths as happened in the fires here in the early eighties and as some reports stated

The hotel was evacuated by the staff who went door to door to ensure everyone was safe. One story here is of an elderly woman with severe heart problems. Two employees of the Monte Carlo got on either side of her and in her words acted as crutches and took the woman down twenty flights of stairs to safety.

At this time the hotel, one of the biggest on the strip with over 3000 rooms is closed and there is no word on when the people will be allowed to get their belongings.

The only hotel evacuated was the Monte Carlo, reports of other hotels being evacuated are incorrect.

Reports state that the interior of the hotel has only minor damage caused by firefighters having to break windows to fight the fire on the outside, and some sprinklers going off and smoke. The fire was contained to the outside. The outer portion was made of some type of form facade which is what was burning and was falling from the building.

The fire started a little after eleven in the morning and within 90 minutes the fire departments had it contained. Due to them having to climb 32 or more flights of stairs to get to the fire, while those in the hotel were trying to get down the stairs and out to safety, I feel that the containment and lack of injuries say a lot about our fire department.

All the guests that were staying in the Monte Carlo have been relocated to one of the other 9 hotels owned by the MGM Mirage group who own the Monte Carlo.

Those of us who remember the fires here in the early eighties that changed the fire codes here in Las Vegas, saw the flames and hurried to our televisions to see what was happening.  I was braced for the worst as I remember the people jumping in the eighties to their deaths to avoid burning to death. Today the fire department some one hundred and twenty five firefighters, police crews and all other emergency responders were like a well oiled machine which I believe account for the lack of injuries and no deaths.

At this moment fire departments is still on scene to ensure that no hot spots flare up, but the fire is out at this time.

Thank you to the efforts of the fire department and all emergency responders today to ensure the Monte Carlo did not turn into a major  disaster as it could have been.  Once again it has been proven that our fire department is made up of lots of unsung heroes. And to those employees of the hotel who stayed and helped ensure everyone made it out safely, you too are heroes.

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What happens when?
Current mood: bitchy
Category: Life

As many know recently my life has made drastic changes. Changes that had to be made for the good of everyone. My mother has moved in with us due to her refusing to take care of herself over the years and her body now showing signs of such abuse. Smoking 5 packs of cigarettes a day and drinking pot after pot of coffee has health consequences. Why bother blaming it on everything else instead of the truth. If you do not take care of yourself expect and accept the consequences. Instead of bitching about everything you have lost look at what others have to give up in order to help take care of an ailing parent.

Next, my soon to be twenty one year old daughter has also moved back home to attend school. Which is a good thing. The school is however a sixty mile round trip venture through Las Vegas. A mother's solution pays another classmate that lives near you to take child to and from. Don't be surprised when said parent is upset to find out that daughter does not have a way to school the very next day. She could have kept the money and just dealt with the rush hour trip to get you there on time and staying up way later than usual to get you picked up.

This by far is not all that is going on saying of be careful not to give away to much of yourself or you find there is nothing left, has never been truer. I get out of bed in the mornings and before I even hear good morning I get a list of all the things I need to do for everyone else. The only time I hear good morning first is when it is the weekend and my other half is home. He is about the only person at this point not asking for anything. Yet, it is not too much to be expected to not look exhausted and ready to drop when he walks in from work. Yet but six in the evening I am mentally shot, I am exhausted and just want peace of and quiet.

Many believe because I work from home I have the luxury of just dropping everything and fulfilling everyone's wants at the exact moment they want it. And God forbid if I take time for me which requires locking myself in my bedroom which doesn't work because they just stand outside the door and knock and yell until I answer. Or I can leave my own home and go in search of peace and quiet. The truth is I have to work, just because I am not in an office does not mean I do not have to do anything but whatever everyone else wants. After all I have bills of my own to pay. No one will pay mine for me but me so I have to work. Hell I may just go find a job where I go to an office just to make the point clear. I am not on this planet to serve everyone else and ensure all they want is fulfilled. I have things I want and desire too. Few know what those are because other than my other half, no one else who is close to me has bothered to ask?

I have a book to finish that has been shelved because I am just too damn tired to write. School is taking its toll because I am tired all the damn time and therefore when it comes time to do homework I do the best I can instead of what I used to do. I am just tired.

It has come to my attention that if I dropped off the face of the planet there is but one person who would notice until something was wanted and I was not there for them to be asked. Then and only then would most notice I wasn't here. That is a sad reality, however it is not a self pity issue it is simply the sad truth that I have come to accept.

So, though I do not believe in making new years resolutions because they seem to always fall short, This year there is but one I am making. Guess what, I can say No, and it will be heard a lot more coming from my lips. So don't be surprised when it is what I say. That does not mean I will not help those close to me, it simply means it will be done on my schedule and not everyone else's. I am tired of feeling tired and used and simply refuse to do it anymore. There are things I want to do with my life that does not include waiting on everyone else for the rest of it. After all I am not so sure if I were the one with the major health issues anyone would step up and take care of me. Another sad reality. Therefore when the time comes I will pick myself out a nice retirement home so as not to be a burden to anyone.

If you haven't guessed not only am I tired, I realize now that I am also somewhat depressed. It is depressing to feel like you matter to only one person beyond what you can do or provide for them. I blame no one for that feeling but myself and this is not aimed at any one person, but just a general feeling. Simply put don't expect me to ask how your life is when you don't really give a damn about mine. Surprise I do have one of those, a life I mean, and I want at least a part of it back.

So, I am going to finish my book this year, I am more than likely going back to work because at this point I will actually be able to work, I am going to earn the 4.0 GPA I worked my ass off for. I am not going to look physically and emotionally exhausted by six each evening. I am going to remember what it is like to fall asleep at night and not have to take medicine to fall asleep. No longer will I get out of bed and feel tired before the day even starts. I am putting me first just like everyone else seems to do for themselves. I want toys and finer things too and am going to get them. I want to purchase a home, I want a new car, I want a lot of things, and I am going to get them. Since I doubt I will win the lottery anytime soon, I am going to discover what my savings account is and put my money there to get myself these things.So again don't be surprised to hear a lot more No's coming from me.

So, welcome to the reclaiming of my life. Sorry if it upsets people. But I am tired of being tired and feeling unappreciated. Hell a simple Thank you goes a really really long way, but is something I seldom hear. I am not asking for people to fall at my feet and profess their deep gratitude, a simply thank you would work wonders.
Ok, I am done bitching now.

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I’m in a music video how cool is that?

I was checking out my favorite musicians myspace pages and came across a video available online by Trent Tomlison. Called Just might have her radio on and was watching it and there I am..Ok so its my back. But the tank top that says T-Town's Mobile bartender is ME when I saw them in Indiana.
The side or I should saw boob in matching tanktop is my daughter.

We are stars WOOHOOO...

I added the video to myspace to check it out.

Now all I have to do is wait for people to ask me for my autographs.(laughs)

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Help Nye County Sheriffs Captuer this man

Thankfully last evening the Nye County Sheriff's have identified the child in the video. However, the person they listed as a person of interest is not a suspect and is being actively sought.



The Nye County Sheriff's Office is seeking information leading to the identification of this female juvenile pictured below. This female juvenile is the victim of a heinous assault at the hands of the male pictured below.

The identities of the victim female and the male perpetrator are unknown at this time.

Anyone with any information regarding the identities and/or whereabouts of either this juvenile female or adult male, please immediately notify the Nye County Sheriff's Office at 775-751-7000 or findchild@nyesheriff.net.

Chester Arthur Stiles, 34, was being called a "person of interest" in the search for a girl with haunting eyes who authorities believe was 4 or 5 years old when she was raped and sexually assaulted in the video, Nye County Sheriff Tony DeMeo said.
The girl is called "Madison" on the tape, and it is "possible" that the man shown in it is Stiles, DeMeo said

Please pass this one. Myspace had done wonderful things, lets help find out who this precious child is and make sure this terrible monster is not permitted to hurt her again!

For pictures of the child and suspect please visit

http://www.nyecountysheriff.net/ncso_seeking_to_identify_victim_of_crime.pdf

I am unsure how to post pictures on the bulletins so please visit the above website



Finally the CNN story http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/09/28/sextape.search.ap/index.html

This is a real case and we must save this poor child from fruther harm. Please Repost and send to anyone and everyone.

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