Sunshine Lubllaby, note,
Category: Life

It's almost done.

It's a slower track to say that I begin to see more Happiness a front.

When I started writing this song,
I was in a place where I've found myself got so close now,
By a vision I'd dream for years.
It was a dream, and then a deep hope, and a goal,
And now, a reality.

It didn't turn out to be everything I'd thought it would be somehow,
But I think I've just come to realize that,
My mind can leads me to anyplace, anyone, any where I'd wanted to be, for.
As I make my efforts, for it.

I gave 200% and in return, I get to see, real closed,
To what it is I'd really got fascinated with.

It is, amazing..
Even though it's not completely the way I have expected in years,
But, it's just great,
When I just know, something will always pay back,
When I did my best, with an open heart.

And how lucky, it is.
To see this, so clearly, now. ☺

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New York_Slow_ August 2008
Category: Life

*5 July 2008(Overwellm mode)

I'm gonna keep this page updating, with photos and thoughts. Maybe until when I return to New York for my music exhibition, Mind Gallery is a rough concept by far I had. Umm.. I had a lot on my mind, a lot.. and lot of thoughts I need to sort out in time.

But, I must say that to Slow down, is one of the most important thing I've learned in the city of New York. Now more than ever, I want to being able to remember, to always slowing down, to sense everything that I might sometimes forgot to see. I'd know I've tried, but now, I'm more aware than ever.

And one thing that haven't change is that I, still know that is only the people I ran into matters.. anywhere I go, strangers, they might just passing by, or I might talk to them for a little while, got a chance to know a small part of their stories, the look on their faces, the pace of their walks..they were making images of my mind. And the ones that were so closed, to my heart, near or far.

I won't deny the fact that the sky line look so much wider and bluer, anywhere as I see it in New York. But the World is one too many beautiful views and too wide of the sky to see, the clouds will always be beautiful every minute as the wind changes their shape into another form.

But I just want to slow down. Begin to see, more.

I feel blessed.

Thank you Frank, for everything..and took me in as a part of your life. Btw plan B is always on my mind, no worry. :)
Thank you uncle and auntie..for showing me how laughters can make a life worth of living.
Thank you Nancy, all that laughs and loud music in the car we'll have to keep that going for a long time:)
Thank you Muff, words are just not enough.. and yes, we'll have time and stay in each other's life, for a long time.
And, Thank you Dad and Mom..I'll make you proud.

Day light is setting in, sky is in grey. But in my mind, Still the blue of the New York city sky.

Jet leg is not so much of issue, for now.


XXXXXXX X

*Random thoughts_


*6 July 2008(I'm in a serious self talking mode, my brain needs to work out.)

*The worse thing we can do to ourselves is to lie then to run away from the truth, and not to see what others have already seen. Don't fool yourself.

*We only wasting times on people who's willing to waste their time on us. But do it with the right ones, otherwise, why bother?

*Leave no regrets, in anything you do. There's a end to everything, in any seconds.

*Stand up high, and tall, you're a teacher to everyone around you. Even to any strangers you might have a 5 minutes conversation with.

*To find Truth and simplicity in your Life, and then you'll be on a track where Life won't fuck you up too badly.

*When you find "IT" whatever that is, and when IT it is in front of you don't give a lousy 100% give 200%

*Giving is Love, in anything you do. But do not except the object of your affections to do or to have anything in return. If they will then you're one lucky bastard, if they don't it just should. We all love ourselves more than anyone else, recognize it. And the World have it's own ways to run, so leave it as it is.

*To try very hard, not to settle, ask for the absolute. Because you deserve it. Take off, fast as you can, if the object of your desiring is not able to be. You've just got lucky, move on. Hate your job, then restore yourself for a better one soon. Hate you lover, say goodbye and begin to talk to the next cutie who sit next to you on the subway. It's not a promise to work, but it's a promise to a one, new, self.

*You don't want to waste life with cool looking people with no heart or brains, when all they do is to looking fabulous and get pissed in all their fabulous ways, because you'll become one of them. Choose the people around your Life carefully, get connect with warm hearted honest people, you can always learn from. And if you can't now, then read and learn, more about Life or what you loved. So when the right one sets in, you'll be found.

*Learn to say no. To temptations and fashionable bad habits, before you know it you'll be looking back at some regretful 2 years.

*If someone is not trust worthy, remember there's no 3rd chance. Read people through their details.

*If you can, it's a must to learn from other people's experiences, save your own suffering for something better to do. But when you have to go through it on your own, then remember, there's no big deal besides life and death. We must fucked up to stand up sometimes.

*Cherish what's in front of you Sonja.


*10 July 2008(Morning breeze)

There was time when I thought that I'll have to try hard to find, and here comes the time, where I am being found. I remember a friend once told me, "When it comes, no one else will know, but you." And I must say, it is all so true, now. I feel slightly a bit settled from my own crazy absolutes. But just, for now. I know.


*12 July 2008(Truth is self conscious)

I am not justifying the Love I had for Life or for Love, I'm justifying the Love within.

Without me, seeing me, then I would never be able give anything that is real.

And if I must fall and be burn with my own self conscious and instinct, then I'll take it.

And do the best I can to be rebuild again.

And it is then I'll know, to hold on to what I really have in this spirit we called it Life, is to only moving forward with what Life had to show.

I'm blessed, and I'm loved. By the things that I had or have not already know.

I'm surrounding by Truth, one's selfishness uplifting with it's own.


*13 July 2008(Falling Leaves)

Terrified me sometimes, how I always notice the dandelions and the clouds and the blue sky. Reminds me of an old Chinese saying, of how you are here now, to redo whatever you've done wrong in the past Life. And the way my Fate reading says about my future, I'm the falling leaves form the tree, and will never be landed on her roots again. What am I some floating air that caused some hurricane the past Life? I, have no clue, at all. And somehow, besides all it's beauty, of being light and free, I feel, frightened.

I'd know what happiness looks like, and feels like. I saw it in the parks, on the streets, 70 year olds couple still feeding each with their sandwich. You wouldn't believe the sweetness in that. And how I saw my uncle and auntie from their back, as they are sitting together looking at the beautiful night of the Brooklyn bridge.

I can see, happiness. But can I archive it.

Dare I say more. I'll feel, settled. So much more settled, I will. One day. One, day.

Solitude's my home, Rod Mckuen. I hear him sang.

What have I done wrong?

Why can't we be absolute?

Why can't I?

Because Life is not, absolute, enough.

I've done nothing, wrong.

I've been to town, Rod keep on singing, to me. Morning..Life, sunshines shadowed by the clouds today, outside of my window.

*In Life, everything changes.

2386 times emotional transcending and thought movements a week, times 365 days, equal? And for a woman, there's no limits on this subject.

What matters is, to set great goals of Life and for Love, and in the process, to never forget. Laugh and have fun as much.

The Happiness that counts, for Now.

There's an end, to everything, in any seconds. I know. Now.

The Happiness was not meant to be hold.

The state of Mind, and an Spiritual flow.

It's not a Human thing to get control, Over.

But try to get a control, of Self.

There's an end, to everything, in any seconds. I know. Now. And Always.

As if it's Nothing. It's really a Chinese thing.

Thank you for being.

Now.

Thank you..


*20 July 2008(Less,)

So, the moments is here, where I felt so much less, of Love and Hate.

Even if I could still got so caught up by emotional thoughts a lot of times, but something seems to really changed, inside.

Sensitivity is the best teacher anyone can have along the journey. It's like a mirror of the perfect reflections. If you spend time, to just listen.

A heart won't lie, when it's alone.

And also, the Time. always showing the Truth of everything. If you give, Time.

And those time alone. Listening, searching, wanting, begging and finally letting it.

So much have been lost and earned. The hard way, the hardest ways.

I can't be found if I haven't been completely lost.

There's no more high emotions I had now sometimes when I look back, it is just a part of some conversations or a thinest line in between the lyrics or writings.

Almost unreal as tough as the lesson was. It's meanings, some I kept closed to my heart, some, maybe I taught myself to forget.

Bad memories it's a wonderful plus, you forget, and you forgive. As silly as it is, Life is the silly way it is.

I spent a few day doing my dummy exercises, to stop thinking so much on serious things I had on my way.

And now to be back in there again, I'm feeling so much more..There.

So much I wanted to do..so much more I could, no, so much more I will give and willing to share, took me a lot to feel calm right this moment of my Life.

I cherish it because I knew how hopeless and darkness breath like and feels like, all that was not easy, and to realized that the truth is there are a lot of times in your life, even the ones who love you the most, will not be able to help. Everyone need to find their self on their own.

And to do that, I don't know what was the first step really, um..but I think it was the quest for what it is Real and True. it'll take you away from all the other not important things what most of the time most people would say. So whenever you feel like there's a quest, go dig it, don't let go. Write it down, find the right books, listen to them talking to you, then say right and wrong on your own turn. Having what everyone else's having is not the only way to have a life that's good. But to be true and real to yourself, always will.

But to be True and Real to yourself always will.

Sunny day today, the sky is shining with silver lights..

Sending out blessings to everyone out there..the seekers..the heart followers..the Life takers...the bold dreamers..the goal archivers..the silly smile makers..you are Life, and you are the Lights, whenever you're passing by Life. To everyone and anyone around you, and to the soul vibes that transcending to the world. In every breath you take, your good wills, will always count. May our Lights shine for us, and anyone that we are able to reach in this Life we call our own.

TAO is you and I, and the way we shine our Lives.

Love,

*3 August 2008

SLOW, it's working more than ever.

It's quite not easy for me especially when I talk,

but now, I can.

I was just always wanted to say and go, many thoughts to be resolve in mind sometimes.

now it's like, I'm slowing down, even though I'm still shooting words and just want to go.

it just, feels, different now.

Slow, this is such a matter for me. More than getting what I want in time.

nothing's completely in my control, and it might as well never be:)

And so, all I'd really want now, just some slow dance.

just some, slow, dance.

Slow,

*10 August 2008 Willingness.

Willingness, the kings and queens, do you give in?

The clarity of blindness.

One reflecting the other, the longing mirrors.

And let the rain showing the evening sky,

And as I took the place from the smokes of my mouth,

I was then sent free.

No hesitations and or how I should be.

I don't matter, then and now,

My willingness, the kings and queens.

And still my willingness,

171 thoughts of today and the perfect third times of the evening.

My willingness, and me.

Where else should I be?

I dance, with my willingness.

On the way to New York was one of those moments I begin to realized that, I want to SEE, most people were asleep or tired of it maybe. I was awake most of the time. Caz I want to see the sky.


Uncle and auntie..defined Happiness_


People, with Lights, defined the City.


He was playing "Yesterday" that night when I'm just parted with muff in the subway, the sounding with the echos surrounding the subway walks was just amazing, soften my heart right away. And so I paid for the show and said, this is a really beautiful song sir.



Stolen, the thief of the heart, more please_


On the 5th Av. I stopped and so I can see, the clouds reflects on the building, like a mirror. People in the city were busy, but for me, I was there to see. Maybe they'll go to Paris or London to SEE one day.


Shall I say more? or we might just as well slow down sometimes hum


"The road never ends really" so I asked J the other day where does it end. That's alright, I'll draw my own line.


I think Blue is the only color I see when I'm there, is like whenever I see a blue sky, I go mad in my eyes and in my mind.


Stealing the beauty from the butterflies,


Let's fly, onto our different ways, and in the end of road, I'll see you there, or maybe not. Life goes on, and so do we. Moments, those that counts, last, for a life time long.


One for muff,


The eyes in the sky that day they see me better than I can see myself, and I know why. Caz I have to lift up, and the eyes would never have to. I'm surrounding without knowing, and I am loved. I'm giving love and without knowing, my fear, no more.


Lights, cracking my eyes open, wide open.


I tried to catch the lights, but I will have to walk away from it, and stop, seeing. But I'll never let one pass by, easily. I'll keep trying. I'll keep , trying.


Dandelion, my perfect shadow, it's just everywhere I go. We're a family, you and I. Free, but never, careless. Light, and always bright in our minds.


I'm one of them, and I'm one of you. I see, when your eyes were close. You were asleep, as deep. I kept mine open, for one long seek.


Good job Ken!

One with Frank photographer!.!


Frank took us to Cafe Wha:)


Darling Nancy and Frank hours before I take off..miss you guys already!


Uncle was killing us..we were dying laughing really.


Coming home..one perfect break from break, please:D

Currently listening : Dreamcatcher By Secret Garden Release date: 2001-05-22

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Around Spring_
Category: Life

Bro's beautiful daughter was born in the April of Spring 2008.
*New house track I've work with MoShang & Kou Chou Ching press play and enjoy it, album out in the end June 2008. "Naluwan House"

Plus I'm so excited about my two weeks holiday in NYC and about to throw up_period.

Thanx for the sweet companies abound my river bank runs, the lovely tumble weeds and those beautiful butterflies.

We are One friends, cheers_

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Love Note of Jackal
Category: Life

This one goes out to Jackal, good friend of my bro Luc.
And there's a this little story about it.

He just ended his eight years relationship with his girl friend.
And the other night when I go meet Luc with Ray-Ray,
Luc said hey I've got this very good lyrics do you want to work on it?
And I said oh why am I getting pay for it?!
Of course I was just joking,
but normally I don't do that either but of course, unless.

And we were hanging outside Luc's shop that night,
waiting to hit on the dance floor,
and Luc went to get Jackal,
and next thing I know he was walking to me,
and he gave me his hand writing lyrics.
And then I talk to him for a bit,
he looked, just tired.
And then he told me it was a eight years thing,
I just feel like you know,
it's something you do not say no to.

He seem like a good guy and I saw him with his girl friend once,
like years ago, they look great and happy together.
And some times later that night after I said yes,
I was in Luc's kitch eating a bit before we leave for dancing.
Man! Do I feel the pressures just to think of it.
I was like hey why am I having his hand writings copy?!
Can I just keep a copy and give this back to him please?
But oh well his first copy was in his mobile.
So ok now I'm just a girl on a mission.

When I ask him what style of music he wants,
he simply said, it was just something heavy and painful anyways.
He's a man, it's clear. What did I expect him to say anyways?

Well this is definitely a man's track,
inspiring by his lyrics.
But it's not a track made for moaning.
It's a track made for blessing.
I wish they'll work it out somehow.
Or at least, just try.

Just like what I said to him,
I say Eight years of life and love, there's nothing can't be working out.
It don't just disappeared like that.
And one day you'll know there really isn't that many or much,
of what it is really worth it to cherish for.
And now you've had something that you should,
so Cherish it.

And I am telling myself too, cherish it.
For anything that's rare and truly moves me.
And it's just like what my darling muffin said,
"If something's change I'll change too."
Hope you'll get that too Jackal.

This blessing goes out to you,
cheers man.

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Chinese New Year for kids_
Category: Life

One with darling Wai-er


Trouble Cheng's back for la holidays_


Pain in d ass Luc and his little sis wa-la


Winter time ice creams always a good idea..


We finished like 8 balls of them a giant dish of ice cream..


Therefore our brain got freezey


and it last for days then getting worse after the strawberry milkshakes..


And now Miss Sally and two brain freezey is about to introduce you..


the legendary..


Miss MiMi!


She's a fatty but not as a fatty as my Fatty!


She could be a little little mean but still the cutest girl I've ever seen!


I love my Fatty but MiMi just way too adorable la~


Cutest chubby little thing even when she's angry:)


Mi and Sally just can fight for hours and yelling at each other:)


we just laugh till our tummy's hurt:D


Miss Sally and I took a moment when Mi was napping:)oh my..such a good time, sillness just always a bless. Laughters can get us through everything..get it on hardness we're ready! Happy Newwwwww Year!

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South, the warmth of December.
Category: Life

To make her happy, is easy. Some lavender ice cream beside the lavender field..wa la~she's happy..


Ah sun..don't get to see that much of sun in Taipei now


Bro's happiness..:)


Me and da cuties:D


The little fella..


and his big toy


I love taking their pictures


Silly cute lady eyes open!


I was walking behind them, it's a beautiful picture of life


On the mailbox it says: The happy me


This reminds me the first time we took a pic together..


This reminds me we should leave the deer's prongs alone


It was strangely fun.. :)


She love my trouble ass over all..therefore, she's one amazing lady..:)


If there's something unique about Chinese's Art and culture, I would say it would probably be that..underneath the solemnity,conservative ways of living and showing love, there's a great depth of endurance and giving without words. I used to wonder would things still be meaningful, if we never say or show it? And I'm still wondering about it sometimes, but I just somehow know that, if the warmth of our hearts can be invisible, so can everything else. And I'm happy, to be grown and taught, in the way and the world that I was in, and I shall never forget..

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To the mountains_
Category: Life

The Tayal tribe.



and their great beautiful mountains.



On the left is A-Ming our happy Tayal tribe friend.



Part of Ming's little farm, and our lunch..:)He also raising fishes and snials...fruits and veges.



Standing on the little hills upon Ming's house.



Right across Ming's roof.



Ming and I after lunch, he make us laugh so hard and sing us Tayal tribe songs..we had a good time:)..in the tribes drinking is a culture, therefore I look like a monkey's ass the early bright light..:)



Lunch...:D



Chilling on Ming papa's chair.



Ming's giving Ray-Ray little chickens for his mama to raise.



Taking a 1 minute scooter ride up to the hills, another spot that belong to Ming's family.



Their front walk.



The little water falls in between the mountains.



Ming's Kitty that's watch over the house rubbing on my feet :)



yap the happy house keeper:)



Right beside their house.



Freshness,



so flow.



One with the beautiful mountains:)



Last pic before we leave..



The near by Na-ao port.



Right side of the port.

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Lights_Trip Yilan
Category: Life

Heading east to visit my buddy Ray's home town..


yeah getting closer to the beautiful Suao beach.


We ready?!


Ah....she's the rock soooo pretty


I think I took about...like 80 pix of her LoL


Ray pick up this fat Taiwan shape rock officially piss me off! I'll find a better one!


Da la! Heart shaped rock but damn Ray saw it first :( but I get to keep my heart! Still happy!


On the right was my favorite pick, it looks like a Picasso! And in the middle I found a mini fat Taiwan shape too! HA! Get it on men! And the little white rock is where we at east of Taiwan.


Ooook I admit this is the winning rock of the day...it's the shape of my home :)


Wa la, my about to win display, anyone can see that I picked the best rocks!!


Happy as a cat with their fish^_


Evil..evil men is doing his d...is he try to win?? He-can't!


Damn it..I don't care I'm the winning team with my best rocks!!!!!


The joy of winning the 2007 Su-ao's best rock seeking contest LOL


Entering the Forest garden in Yilan city, the rain was on and off..and still so sunny and a little rainbow appears!


The path through the fresh green


Again it was raining...but as the rain shining on the trees, they lined up like a walk to..somewhere I might like to see.


But the sky still look like this as it rains..it's beautiful.


The little pretty on our tree walk, I think she look quite happy under the rain and the sun:)


The rain stops again the sparkles on the river was a dream at that moment.


This is another moment of my day, in the Yilan park, I just love this green..


And what in the hell was I thinking posing a golf pose just caz Ray-ray said so~


Indeed I do adore these green, no doubt about it.


Ray's favorite.


They crack me up and I think my Fatty would've love to play with them!


Another moment of my day, eases me to see all that blue ahead.


S_P_O_O_K_Y!!!


I love love these trees in the Yilan city hall area, they are so strangely beautiful, so alone and yet so still. Way up high and grounded low.


I'm gonna catch them in day light the next time.


The sky was in her best dress and my favorite colors of her as we left the city hall area, as I took the last pic..I just come to realized..that I'm the winner of the 2007 Su-ao's best rock seeking contest!!! H-A-P-P-Y ^_^ And I can still smell the sea and the green :)

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Cocktails hour_
Category: Life

Sweet Kenji, me me, Yuki and my darling Ray-Ray

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Found,

Reasons, why.
Category: Life

Cats, they just scratch and bites, you might bleed and it might even leave some scars on your skin. And you should know it, before you choose their company. There are no reasons and why they do it, they just do.

But I love my kittys anyways, other thing don't matter.

I surrender.

People, we gave true embraces, and then get on our own ways. I should know it, before I was too high to see. There's no why, and there's no reasons, because life just is. No one ever meant to harm, not you nor I, but love just is. And I should know better, then to surrender.

But I love you and you anyways, and maybe I still am.

No reasons, and whys, it just is.

It's more than sample, beyond common sense.

No reasons, no whys.

No hiding.

My spinning head, non-stop. And I know they still were, even when I was asleep. Those fuzzy dreams, and the realizing dream that I'm in. I find no reasons and whys to fight them, because I know they are in need. So I surrender to their needs, and so does my brain. No reasons, and whys.

I roll with it anyways, bitterness running the artery. Smothering depressions, the ecstasy of appreciation. Until I can center, to what really matters.

My spinning head, my singing little bear.

I surrender now, and I surrender always.

No reasons, and whys.

The process, of healing.


V.

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Creativity, effects.
Category: Life

I was reading this book Creativity by a wise theater director, and it really brain-ed me too much. I have stop reading so often, after I read Lin Yu Tang's Life is like a poetry, it just felt too close and I know the same understandings would just last.

Lin he's a very cute old men wearing a old glasses with this little loveable face, who writes, who love to take walks and love the tasty feels on his tongue every time the orange juice sly into his throat, love the smiles and warm embraces from his kids and wife. He's religion is life. He sees Life as a life, not hoping or counting for a distant heaven he can't see yet, but here. His words were just so bright and mellow, so wise and light, I just love it. And I think that's basically what happened to me the other night, when I was smoking on the balcony, and my head just say, Sharp is easy, but mellow is art. I think he just came back for a visit.

Finished reading this book Creativity, brings a lot of thoughts back to me though, about life. I thought of a lot of choices I've made, and how it would turn differently otherwise, and how everything's effecting me now..the people around my life. And why I find music the best exit..why I want to write and what I must say. I think and I think..over and over, thinking and asking questions and why. And I thought I gave up thinking too hard already? And just let life rules. But I THINK I've just found myself lying. I think, no, I know I've never stop thinking, too much. But it's a good thing, for me.

This book asked a lot of questions on beliefs and where you came from with your creativity and how life effects on any creativity acts. And why do you must? What it is that you want to say it is so important and worth to share? Which really gave me some headaches to write it all out, and to a point I just write back aside his lines and ask him, why are you asking so many bloody questions? However I've found last chapter were the most refreshing part, when he quote quite a lot, to say that creativity and art is not always about making something new, or to be outrages, but the bottom line was how to keep it honest and real, pure and close to life.

I remember a news from many years ago, it was about a sixty years old labor worker, finally finish his egg sculptures through years, and open up a little little museum, in a far way country side, near by where his lives. I remember how he moves me, his life, his creativity. And I imaging his life, with his wife aside and a few grown kids away from him, the repeating labor works in his everyday life, day after day, seasons after seasons, the cold winter mornings, while still waking up each day, and in the spring, when it rains, he's always out the door at seven AM shot, to earn the basic living. And in his spare times, he just do what he loved, his sculptures. And all those egg sculptures he have made through the days, has become a little museum of his own universe. And how beautiful those sculptures were. So delicate and so detailed, come from a man with no big names in art, but who's living one, and that's a wonderful one.

It just feel like that song I love from Saint Etienne, every time when she sings "I got cash in my packet to last the weekend" , I just laughed and melt down, it's just so much sweetness and life within it when I listen to it. And it's like I remember there were a few times when I felt so let down and was walking on the street alone, I was walking pass by some street dogs, who just have these ridiculous huge smiles hanging on their faces, with their big tongue out, and most of the time they were just looking so dirty and silly, sometimes even a bit too skinny or crippled, and I was like, what was I upset about? And the strangest ones were those dandelions, I ran into them everywhere, but I can't recall since when I stopped try to crap them into my hands, but just thinking to myself, look how light and careless they were.. and I envy that, so much.

In the human nature of wanting what I don't have or what I can't, I hope to see myself one day, living a life, close enough, to theirs, the olds and the dogys, though I really prefer a dandelion one. We all have our points of view we believed in, and a way to show it, but in the end, I know that nothing more than simplicity and what it was pure will make a life worth awhile.

It's a beautiful sunshine this afternoon outside my window, I'm going to do some hand brushing with my shirts and convers before I leave the house, clean the room for a bit, take a lovely shower and put a mask on..weekend cleaning fresh everything up! And play with my fatty rabbit!

V.

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Forever, sunday.
Category: Life

I wonder, sometimes I really wonder. And I ask myself the same question over and over. Am I really grown enough to understand the depth of life's losing? Was I strong enough to realize that I just can't forever hold on to what I value and treasured? Or I just somehow learn to feel that I am, so I won't feel so bad.

Still I have no answers, and for now I give up to searching for answers. And honestly, I want no answers. Because the answers they're never good enough for me, because the answers they were never absolute enough to be.

I am human and I am weak, I am selfish and I know it. I am human and I hurt other people and other people they hurt me, and I live it. I am a woman I am sentimental, too sentimental, and I love it. I cry for cheesy love stories, I cry for cheesy movies cheesy songs, I love it. I am not myself I am not myself at all, when there is love and when love is all, and I love it I'm a jealous woman, I am a jealous woman for life and I love it. I am vulnerable too vulnerable to life, and I will never stop to admit it. Tale they go on and on, but life wouldn't. And somehow I just want to be embraced, even when I thought that I shouldn't.

Life's easier when I started to see life, as they were, with no right and wrong. I know what I am made of and I have my angles, and that's good enough for me. But to life and to everything in life, I just feel humble. And I'm humble enough to admit that I'm just another someone who's here for an uncertain while, I am just another uncertain tomorrow yet to come. I enjoy what I can have and what I've earned hard to have, and that's good enough. I know that sometimes, I don't deserve that much, or deserve that little. But that is just it, good enough for me, for now.

There were times where I somehow hope that I won't wake up for another day, but just to think of how many wonderful things in life that I haven't experience yet, I always get greedy and found my reasons again. The true liberations at the moments when I feel alive for love and wanted to give, all those here and then were so amazing. But I can never deny the facts that other people and I still somehow got hurt over the same reasons and just how stupid and silly that was.

Too much love and hate, too much dream and too much hope, too much death in pain and too much alive with desire. One crazy world and myself, one crazy world and love, and all that just not absolute enough, for me.

Simplicity, I've found my peace. My own pace in life, and here I am with life. Life, there's just too much to be comprehended. I don't want much out of life, I never do. I know what I am capable of and what I'm not, and that's my life to be. I just want to be where the last pureness and sweetness is, my own little piece of heaven. And yes I can still see the angels, but the angels who are already living in my life. And I'm thankful. I thank the angels to be seen, for a girl like me.

Well I guess all the thoughts that has running through my head now, still points out the one thing now and then again. Life, is a beautiful one over all. And within each fall, we shall rise again.

XXX

One wasted Sunday afternoon sunshine, one morning light my dreamless sleep ahead. But my new lesson has learned last night, with Cam and his newly love life. When one's in love, then one's insane. But it's going to be ok, we always know. And for me, it's going to be ok forever.

And by the way, world evil, you are so dirty, and you can be as dirty and low as you want, but we are not.

V.

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Cheers to you,

Cheng's visit_night out-_

Cheng and I.



good times:)



the dance floor wa la-



the dancing hat.



the dancing teeth_



the dancing FBI-_



it's not a dance_



Luc you're such a ASS!

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