things i miss

the beach
summers without school
dryers that work
gas that was cheap
not having to be an adult

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summer school

just becasue you put summer infront of something doesn't make it fun.

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the NOPD dont feel the need to respond
Current mood: annoyed

for the first time in a few years i had the opportunity to not work ALL of mardi gras. this is one of the many reasons i love my job. rj and i went to see our 2 favorite parades. i threw all my morals out the wondow and smoked, drank and ate meat.
mardi gras day was a blast. we hung out in the quarter and i got to see all my friends. the costumes were great and the weather was nice. around 9:30 is we decided to call it a night.

we were leaving the quarter and we rearended a truck on decatur. the front end of the echo was smashed and the truch was fine, not even a dent. a few foot patrol cops ran up to us as soon as we collided. they took down everyone's names and numbers and then another car accident occured, i think it involved a pedestrian. so we called the police, the insureance company and the tow truck. the tow truck arrived under the impression that the police would have already been there.

the NOPD never came out to do a report. the tow truck left becasue he is legally not allowed to tow a car without a police report. so we waited and called the police until about 2:30 am(thats 5 hours). NOTHING! The NOPD did not respond!
we finally got a ride from a friend of a friend and left my car int the quarter(it would not start)
the good new is no one was badly injured or arrested also i have full coverage($1,000 deductable).

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prophase,prometaphase,metaphase,anaphase,telaphase

i wish i could just just divide into two idenical copies of myself then i could do evrything and not feel like i have to make comprimises with myself. the first would study trig, biology, statistics, and spanish(and ace all the classes). she would graduate in 4 years . she would also get an amazing internship at a psychiatric hospital and impress all the staff with her brains and personality. this would result in a multitude of letters of recomindation that would guarantee her acceptance into med. school. eventually she would finish her research on the "rosemary complex" and her findings would become the hot topic in the psychology field. resulting in several book contracts and even a movie script based on her career, where she is played by scarlet johanson.

the second would work full time, wake up late, and actually clean the house. she would hang out with friends and not worry about getting up at 8 am. she would smoke and drink. she would dance all nigh and sleep all day. she would finish ,really finish the laundry. she would paint non stop and write volumes of poetry. she would read 3 books a week and breed cacti. after moving to austin, l.a., new york, portland, chicago ect. she would eventually decide that europe is the only place where her art can fully flourish.

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keep on keepin' on
Current mood: determined

in the near future i will try my damdest to:

-be a non smoker
-create more art
-continue to kick schools ass and remain on the dean's list
-draduate
-got to the gym 4 days a week
-stop being sick
-get my teeth whitened

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have not has a cigarette since last year.

it's been three, technically 4, days since i last baught a pack and smoked it all only to buy another and smoke half of that the same night.
this is one of the hardest things i have attempted to do in life so far. the wellbutrin is helping, the cravings are not as intence and are fewer.
on the other hand ,i cant sleep, i have been going to bed between 6-7am. usually around five i want to tear my eyeballs out and then buy a pack and smoke like 3 ciggs in a row at in my car. i have been telling myself that all this is worth the health benefits of quitting smoking. i feel speedy and delirious but i have not given into the urge and i refuse to do so. my eating habbits have changed and it makes me worry. im not sure if its the wellbutrin or the quitting smoking or both. ahh my brain is getting ahead of me..ill update more when i get some sleep.

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January 1st 2007

today is the first day of my non smoking self. i have been mentally preparing myself for this day for a few months now. i woke up i took the first welbutrin s.r. and i dont feel like i need a cigarette that badly. however, i have only been up for 2 and a half hours and i dont have any stressors like work or school today. not to mention the hangover. i really feel like i can quit this time.

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new things
Current mood: cheerful

* i baught a car    ( a 2002 toyota corolla)
* rj got me a ring    ( we will all see after christmas)
* spending time with great new friends     (and great old ones)
* being happy and enjoying the time off from school

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im elated

The finals are over!!! So far, i have 2 A's for the semester and i hope there are more on the way. My classes for the Spring semester are all set and i filed an appeal with finanacial aid, and they reinstated my aid. This is a relief considering i had to pay 2 grand out of pocket for last semester. This feeling of accomplishmet and freedom is great. A whole month without studying sounds excellent!

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15 months
Current mood: busy

my painter's block has passed.
i started a painting, and after 15 months of thinking of and trying to paint, i've done it. it feels amazing, to know that after so long you can still do something. i guess its like riding a bike.
oh, and only 1 week and 2 days left of school!!

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