Change of heart
Current mood: exanimate

You know, sometimes I read things that just bring life and all the crap that we go through, stupid situations we find ourselves in, into perspective.

I was just reading a human interest story with excerpts from a mother's diary, written in 1856, the horror that she went through as she watched her 2 year old daughter die and there was absolutely nothing she could about it. When I think about all the horrible things that are out there in the world, sad heartwrenching experiences people go through on a daily basis - it really makes things like the dimwit from today seem so stupid and superficial. In the grand scheme of things, what does that really matter? Is that situation life and death? No. No it's not. It's just some sad person who doesn't have anything better to do with his life, trying to drag other people down into his quagmire with him.

You know what really matters? Continuing to build a life with my family, taking care of my adorable little boy, keeping myself healthy for my precious like bundle that is growing inside of me. Working on making myself a better person, so I can be a better parent and better partner. Scene garbage and scene politics don't matter. That really isn't so much my world anymore. Doesn't mean I don't still love everyone, it's just that my life has changed and moved in a different direction and, in all honesty, this other crap is stupid and it doesn't matter.

I will go back to ignoring it, just like I've done for the past year.

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Remembering
Current mood: irritated

We usually criticize in others that which we hate the most about ourselves.

It's the lessons learned that make us stronger.

The action *is* the message.

The higher we hold ourselves above others, the lower we are.

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And so it begins............
Current mood: sick

for you, not me :p

So, as most of you know, I seem to find myself gestating again. After the past month and a half, I am really wondering why I thought this would be a good idea. heh. I am so much sicker than I was with the boy child. Some days, I feel like I can barely function. My mom, a CNM (Certified Nurse Midwife), assures me this is a good thing, because it means that the pregnancy is healthy and doign what it's supposed to. My argument: My pregnancy with Sebastian was perfectly healthy and did everything it was supposed to and I wasn't sick as a dog the whole first trimester. heh heh Oh well.

So, on top of that, I managed to get a raging stomach bug sometime around Thursday/Friday. To say I've barely eaten would be a gross understatement. To all of you who have had the cajones to do this multiple times, good for you.  After this, it's all over. 2 is my limit.

Hmm. That was rather whiny of me, wasn't it?

Life, on the whole, is really good. Sebastian is growing like a weed and is so dang samrt. It's almost impossible to keep up with him. He is so damn amazing. I love watching the wheels turning in his head and I love catching that "A-HA!" moment, even more. I know that once I'm over the ick and the new little parasite is here that I will feel the same way about it.

Right now, though, I just want to be able to eat without feeling like it's all going to come back up momentarily.

Anyway, yeah. Hi there! How goes it? Hope all is well on your end!

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3-4 month old black kitten needs a home ASAP

We have an approximately 3-4 month old kitten that adopted us about a month ago that we are trying to find a home for. He is sweet and loving and adorable, but we already have 3 cats, a puppy and a VERY busy 2 year old. We are just not able to take on one more baby right now. He was a stray that we took in until we found a home and other avenues haven't been successful. He's GREAT with kids (he plays with Sebastian really well), other cats - male and female, and the dog. He's cuddly and a lover. He is not fixed, so you will need to have him neutered. Please help us find a good home for this little man.

Respond by sending me a myspace email if interested

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