Alabama Boys
Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Life

Alabama is called the "Heart of Dixie" and has to the best state in the US. I have grown very fond of this state for one sole reason: My secret undying love for Alabama’s most prized possession. I believe that residents of Alabama take what I consider a national treasure for granted. Taking into consideration all the other states in the U.S., I can officially say in my professional and personal opinion that Alabama boys are the best there is!

My passion for boys from Alabama started with one of the cutest boys there. Not only is he smart, good-looking, and charming, but he has that southern accent you can only get in that state! I owe all credit to him for showing me that the boys of Alabama are simply the best. Hats off to you Heath -if only my hair wasn’t so big and I could actually wear hats.

Honestly it’s the accent that gets me. Whenever I talk to my friend Heath on the phone and hear that deep southern Alabama accent, I just can’t stop smiling. Yet have I been to this place I now call heaven, but I am planning an upcoming trip and I am so super excited. If you have yet come into contact with an Alabama boy, I advise act now because this is going to be a HUGE trend for Summer 08. I know that I am jumping on the wagon now.

Get ready Alabama boys; I am coming to find Mr. Right!

xoxo

W

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Damaged?
Current mood: distraught
Category: Writing and Poetry

I only write at night when something is wrong, Never do I write blogs when things are good. Why does something have to be wrong for me to write? Honestly I know the answer to my own question. I could possibly be the worst person about expressing emotions or even my own feelings when something is wrong and I am hurting inside. I have a fake smile and it’s so perfect you don’t even know when I am wearing it. I will never admit something is wrong, no matter how bad it hurts. I simply put on the smile and pretend everything is ok. Maybe its because I am such an emotionally strong individual I refuse to show a weakened side of myself. I always strive for perfection, its just who I am. By writing how I feel is a cheap escape so I don’t have to express physical emotion. It even goes further then that, not only do I refuse to reveal my problems; if you were to know something was wrong and ask, "can I help you?" I would never admit a problem at all, therefore suppressing and never releasing any emotion.

I cannot release emotions, not even to my friends or family when something has me upset. I once started seeing a therapist to help me deal with this. I sugar coated everything, never admitting any problems I was having or my true self for that matter. He caught .. a few sessions and was able to see right past that perfect fake smile I protect myself with. With that gone he could see the pain that was inside me. He suggested hypnotizing me at the next session to allow me to talk freely and open, without being able to hold back what I was really feeling. The thought of me being so vulnerable, admitting true feelings terrified me to the point were I never went back after that day.

Sitting here evaluating the situation I truly believe that it’s more of a trust issue then admitting defeat. I can and do trust people, but when it comes to me I simply refuse to let anyone in. Often I tell people you will never see the "real" me, I am not even sure if anyone has. The thought of being so vulnerable and open to someone simply sends chills down my body. Is it trust? Self-respect? Fear of rejection? Everyone has a friend that will turn to you and vent about his or her problems opening up, showing you pain and hurt. I myself have never done such in my entire life, Yeah I will say "I am having a bad day" or if having relationship/friend drama I might bitch about it but that is as far as I let myself go.

I am hardly ever serious. I solve every issue I have ever had with laughter, instead of dealing with the actual problem. I can admit that this is a coping mechanism I use to escape from reality. It has even gone to such an extreme that when dealing with death, instead of expressing my emotions I will resort to laughter just so I can cover up the pain and hurt I feel. Sounds horrible I know, but it’s the only solution I have ever used to cope when dealing with raw physical emotion. Sometimes I will watch the movie The Color Purple simply because, I know for fact I will cry and it feels good to have that release.

I am an honest person in life until it comes down to the true me. I avoid conflict at any cost, I refuse to fight with people, and pretty much all my friends have never had a fight or confutation with me. I do have a breaking point when it comes to this, and if that line is ever crossed due to the built up aggression and emotion boiling inside me I loose control. Usually this never happens, but when it does you have pushed me way over my limit, or hurt me in such a way that is unforgivable. Only then will I explode with anger, release physical emotion, and finally express my true feelings. After that I will never speak to you again, completely cutting you out of my life in every aspect without ever-even thinking about it. I am the perfect definition of a Libra when it comes to conflict.

I know that this is a serious, problematic, and unhealthy behavior. But I honestly don’t think I will ever change. It worried what will happen if I continue living life like this? Will it eventually get the best of me? Am I damaged? I just managed to write this entire blog about how I cannot deal with emotions or feelings, instead of dealing with the true reason of why I am hurting inside right now. Which no one will ever know…..

xoxo
W

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J’adore Paris
Current mood: determined

Paris in the spring time, I cant think of another thing in life that would make me happier. I have been on this HUGE kick about going to Paris all this week and guess what Its NOT going away. I have never been, and frankly its about damn time!

It's really not about Paris, its about taking a holiday (vacation, but holiday sounds so cute). I have not been on a TRUE vacation in years! I travel a lot but its always for work, running here, going there, lunch dates, appointments, & more.

I was thinking to myself that its time for a holiday but where to go? I was thinking warm & tropical? NO cause I really don't want to lay on a beach all day and watch the humidity murder my perfect chocolate brown locks. NY, LA? Been there done that! America really bores me. This bitch is going international!

I start searching the globe to find the perfect place. I have a few must see places on my list, Russia, France, Australia, England, & Italy. I really want to go to Russia, don't ask why cause I really don't know why I just think it would be amazing. Then it hit me Paris in the spring! What a perfect fit!

I speak some french so basically I am good to go. I start thinking of all the great things Paris has to offer and I have now become obsessed with going, I have been talking to Lindsey non stop about going, she really needs to come with.

Paris to me is, Shopping, Baguettes, Cheese, Champagne, Croissants, Crepes, Chocolates, Pastries, and so much more. I am getting myself really worked up here.

So basically there is no holding me back now, Once I am in this deep there is nothing that can pull me back...

Paris, Here we come!

xoxo

W

9:14 AM - 87 Comments - 109 Kudos - Add Comment

OMG I AM UN-DATEABLE
Current mood: curious
Category: Life

Well I guess most of you know that I am Single, and sorta loving it.....

I had been in a relationship for the last five years, and life after that has been hard. I guess I really didn't think what it would be like to date other people, or if it was going to be a challenge.

But guess what! It SUCKS! I don't necessarily want a bf, I mean gezz, This kid has been wearing his chastity belt for way too long. But once you have been with someone for that long, and then you wake up and no longer have that, its frankly depressing. Not having anyone to hold you, kiss you, hug you, NOTHING!

So I have been dealing with a lack of affection which has made dating hard, cause I go straight for affection which makes me in the long run look like a total CREEPER! I go straight into the hugging, kissing, cuddling mode and cant stop. (I am such a cuddlier)

I don't know how to date! I have lost all game I once had, I am such a sweet guy not to toot my own horn but, toot toot bitches! Im the kind of guy that likes to wow people. When I meet someone and we both start liking each other I am the person that goes and puts a rose on their car the next day. That sends the super sweet text messages, wants to watch them sleep, that would bend backwards for the relatively complete stranger.

So I have went the total WRONG direction in dating, I have been throwing myself out there, like a whale on pavement just flopping around. There is no chase, no thrill, just creeper me. Not that I want to play games, but there is a certain level of desire that makes dating what it is. With me there is no desire, cause I am all over you like woah!

I have a frankly different life then most, due to the industry that I am in, I have to be available 24/7 which I am. I am so connected it's sicking, email, text, voicemail, phone calls. So when normal people don't text, email, or call back I sorta freak out, cause I am SO connected. I still don't know how people live without getting email on their phones, I would die.

So its time to start in a new direction I have made 3 steps to meet new people are try to be normal.

1. I am going to Paducah's 20/30 Group to mingle and meet new people (boys). Lindsey & I are going tonight, so well see how that turns out.

2. www.ilistpaducah.com has this thing called the idate of the week. I asked if Lindsey could do it with me, since we are both single. We are going to be the first ever joint idate! It makes sense cause any guy I meet she has to approve of, and same goes with her with the boys she meets. We are going to be interviewed for that Thursday, It will go up December 19th as I am told.

3. Date William Sledd the video, I believe love is out there somewhere, So why not put myself out there in a video! There will be more details on this later.

That is my plan, lets hope this bitch can find her game again!

xoxo

W

3:40 AM - 123 Comments - 174 Kudos - Add Comment

Hey Bitches! Press Release
Current mood: accomplished

BRAVO GREENLIGHTS "HEY BITCHES," FEATURING OUTZONETV.COM PERSONALITY AND YOUTUBE PHENOMEMON WILLIAM SLEDD

Reality Pilot Follows Web Icon As He Contemplates Making the Leap From Paducah, Kentucky To The World Of New York High Fashion

NEW YORK, December 4, 2007 – Bravo announced today that William Sledd, a 24-year-old Paducah, Kentucky native best known for his irreverent web commentary about fashion and pop culture, will star in "Hey Bitches" (working title), a reality pilot produced by Realand Productions for NBCU Domestic Television Distribution and Bravo. Sledd, who currently appears on Bravo's OUTzoneTV.com's web series "Ask a Gay Man," where "Hey Bitches!" is his signature greeting, has been touted as one of the Internet's buzziest personalities, garnering a huge following from fans all over the country including Tony Award-winning actress Christine Ebersole. The pilot will follow Sledd as he contemplates making the leap from his hometown of Paducah, Kentucky, to the world of high fashion in New York. If you've ever watched one of William's videos you know that he can dish it out, but the question is can he take it?

"With over 80,000 subscribers and more than three million channel views to date, William's sense of humor and style have clearly struck a chord with the American public," said Frances Berwick, Bravo's Executive Vice President, Programming & Production. "The response to William on OUTzoneTV.com has been overwhelming; his charm and sense of fun are infectious. People are asking to see more of him and his life."

Armed with a video camera and a mission, Sledd's weekly vlogs (which are several minutes in length) tackle thorny fashion and pop culture topics and offer witty advice about the fashion/style issues of the moment. The baby-faced Sledd, who the Los Angeles Times called "playfully catty and a little bossy," leans toward preppy in his own choice of style, admitting that "it just really bothers me when people look like crap." He first made headlines one year ago when his eighth YouTube installment, exploring the world of denim, was watched more than two million times and quickly thrust him into the national spotlight.

"Hey Bitches" is produced by Realand Productions for NBCU Domestic Television Distribution and Bravo.

About Bravo:
Bravo is a program service of NBC Universal Cable Entertainment, a division of NBC Universal one of the world's leading media and entertainment companies in the development, production, and marketing of entertainment, news, and information to a global audience. Bravo has been an NBC cable network since December 2002 and was the first television service dedicated to film and the performing arts when it launched in December 1980. For more information, visit www.BravoTV.com.

About NBC Universal Domestic Television Distribution:
NBC Universal is a leader in providing entertainment programming to the domestic and international marketplaces. The NBC Universal Domestic Television Distribution division is responsible for the distribution of NBC Universal product to all forms of television within the U.S. and Canada. This includes distribution of current and library film and television product, including formats and non-scripted programming, in the pay, free, and basic markets, as well as the domestic syndication of first-run syndicated TV programs and theatrical and TV movie packages.

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The Death of a Loved One
Current mood: sad
Category: Blogging

It's monday October 26th, 2007, as i drive home from getting my weekly manicure and pedicure (yes i am total princess). It's a nasty day outside with the dark clouds rolling in from the west the sky is black, the rain falls down, you hear thunder in the distance. I pull into my driveway after getting my mail. I grab my murse, the mail, and my iPhone, walking up to the front door I stop and feel the rain hit my face for a second thinking what a dreadful day.

I approach the door, put one hand in my bag searching for my house keys, the other holding the mail and iPhone. Lighting strikes and a brief flash fills the black sky. Still searching for the keys I sift my hand to prop up my murse within a flash I hear my beloved iPhone fall to the ground, I don't immediately panic as this has happened a few other times. I reach down no longer searching for the keys and pick up my iPhone, I flip it around and see that the glass is cracked everywhere, It could be described as a baseball bat to a windshield. I fall to my knees in grief and let out a tearful moan, as the rain pours down I hear my cry echo throughout the neighborhood. I collect myself off my front step, find the keys and left myself inside. I rush in at such a panic, quickly disregarding my murse and make my way to a light to see the damaged that has occurred. I find out the beloved iPhone is still working fine, nothing is wrong, besides the disturbing, repulsive broken glass that is looking up at me.

Now I sit here, with my jacked iPhone feeling all alone in the world. AT&T nor Apple provided any assistance since you can not place a warranty on the iPhone. They can replace the glass for $250 + tax + shipping. I don't even want to do that, why not just buy a brand new phone? Im not sure what I will do, until then me and what I use to refer to as my child will sit and try to mange life even with a broke iPhone. I do not even see the point in living anymore.

xoxo

W

11:36 PM - 53 Comments - 58 Kudos - Add Comment

The New William Sledd MySpace

Due to some "issues" I have decided to start a brand new FRESH MYSPACE!!!!

Tell everyone to add me as a friend....bitches!


xoxo

W

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