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Sunday, July 27, 2008
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Goodness Where Are They?
Current mood:  annoyed
Category: Life
Ok so check it. Its been a minute since I last hit this thing up; but I soooo have to jot down somethings for those that know me or would like to. Where are the interest people at?.... if not the interesting men?. Ive been single for about a year solely cause my ex is a Superior Mamas Boy...nothing gets to him without mamas consent basically and I got tired of that ish. So Ive waited awhile before I became comfortable to go at it again....Im a Love Machine Baby!!!. Ive been on a few dates with various men and have been disappointed left and right. Rather they are to dayum weird and cant hold a conversation, dudes that are cool but got children (sorry but Id like whats left of his attention from work,social life and down time to be towards me not his child),lames that think being on an iphone all evening during an outing is playa like, weirdos that are sexy but dont do nothing but just stare at my breasts and talk about absolutely nothing that holds any meaning to the present lol. Yea I can say that I have had my fair share of lame ass men but man this is starting to be exhausting. And the guy(s) that I do have interest in are just to reserved for me Im a being of Life and Absolutely Love 2 Live It Up!!!!....Feel Me?. So this is a call to the Spirit Winds.....A Goddess is in need of some Illuminating from a Man that has Some Spunk and Personality....Not just a stick in the mud I cant even enjoy admiring cause He is So Boring!!!!!.
Stay Tuned...Summer aint ova yet!!!
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Wednesday, January 09, 2008
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Confession of a Goddess
Current mood:  curious
Ok so here's the deal. I finally met up with my friend Markus tonight and my god was he sexy lol. His whole demeanor was such a turn on from his layed back swagger to confident smurk. Apparently im enjoying the time we had im still up and its like 3:30 in the morning and NO! there aint no ANTM marathon running giving me a reason to stay up so late into the later morning. Its funny how things fall into place what took a year in the making from beginning something with others to ending it with a bittersweet GROWNUP response; I am starting to dig this whole patient thing well for now at least lol. Those who know me know how I do.. Its NOW OR NEVER!. But im young and ive got pleanty of things to learn. No not just from being loved and adored, hell love period lol but life and growing from my experiences, knowing what is right and wrong and just learning how to take a punch to the chin every now and then to help thicken up this skin of mines ( considering I wear my heart on my sleeve ) yet it still remain guarded with thorns of curiousity.....Aww the What If's...Thats what makes all this so dangerous for me yet Im attracted to that shit like a mufuckin moth to a flame. You know the bad stuff that you know is bad deep within when its true odor comes to the surface yet you still try to make it smell like roses and the good stuff you managed to fuck up cause you missed the smell of lightly fragrant bullshit. Well dawlings I would have to say this is a new year....yade yade yada and all that jazz. Im game to see what work I have ahead me from family to friends, from enjoying the single life to having new lover's. Though I miss the stability and comfort of a relationship I never sat still long enough to admire the freedom of being a bachelorette. Going when you please, doing what you please....AND FUCKING WHOMEVER THE FUCK YOU PLEASE LOL.
til than my love's
Smooches
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Friday, December 21, 2007
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Fallen Angel (Resurrected)
Current mood:  crazy
Its been a long time since Ive seen this face
the face that braught my heart to a stop during my Reign of Selfishness & Lust
I admire it from afar like a hunter studying his prey
The moment we met it was sweet and fresh
though rushed by time I didnt mind it at all
It was a intoxicating night with the bussom of the moon upon us
Its ok to think back right?
Though it has been a long time since our faces met
our tongues and scent tainted eachothers body
The longing, the wronging(s),the I cant live without(s)
Yes I believe this face is my Soul Mate
Everyone has their something right?
This surpassed addiction
Only he could feed my hunger for attention and satisfaction
I opt to truly let go with the aide of the Holy One Himself
But lord forgive me for falling for one Bad Ass Brotha
He knows who he is
Its been years since our last goodbye in that parking lot
My tears showering my face
His longing to let go became a knife to my throat
I begged like I was pleading for my life
This was a love that came out of no where
Yes I lied, He lied, We lied
But I still loved this face
To this day no man has been able to replace that smile
the looks his eyes give me,the feeling his touch brings me
the amount of blood that rushes threwout my body by the sound of his voice
Yes I know
I was someone obsessed perhaps just stupid
Perhaps I had my dance with the Devil and Loved it
And made him realize he Loved It
Perhaps by chance threw what I thought was my last drop of innocence
I found I could love again just as Fierce as I did for him
My love is like the Mafia baby
*Sighing*
Breathe Again
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
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Best Friends 4 Life
Current mood:  full
Category: Friends
Well I just got back from chilling with my cousin this evening. Goodness the energy from that girl lol....whoa!!! good time(s) always though. Went to this new place in oakpark and feasted off such a dish that was filled with vegetable (something I dont really get into ...well lately I have). Went to borders did our usual weirdo thing...(she knows what Im talking about)....Sploooooosh and Peeeeeep!!!!!!!!!!!. Took a nice lil walk to the far part of oakpark/riveforest and saw a bunch of fine ass white men goodness.... Its like whiteamerica couldnt surprise us anymore than bringing forth some fine lookin white men!!!!!!!! them legs and arms mmm; but anywho.....Acted a dayum fool got into a a.j wright buggie that I knew wasnt fit for my big ass..... Got in and the girl just fell out laughing hard!!!! took some pix of me in it and literally pushed me about 3 blocks worth around the park to the opposide side....people walking past which made it funny..(she recorded it all on clip lol) but that you'll never see (least while im still around) lol. Chilled out somemore in the area took a good walk back to the swings where we had us a AIR FIGHT...and popped the shit out of eachother...its a cousin thing or a best friend thing.... if you've experienced it...WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOR?....just have fun with the people that are close to you or try to with the ones you dont really find yourself with anything in common with they just may surprise you.
Looking fwd to that Documentary Cuz
Lin
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Thursday, August 16, 2007
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Remember Me
Current mood: content
Remember me
From the first time we met and you saw my smile to the moment you misunderstood the look on my face dont mind that it was just the sun in my eyes. Remember that I dont like the heat or humidity for I was born in it across the seas in the phillipines in 1985. I absolutely adore autumn and fall head over heels in love again in the winter. You know as well as I do Im a touchy one, emotional, crazy, affectionate, loving and can be evil as all hell; I cant help it Im a vengeful bitch lol. If we ever spent quality time you'd know I love walks and have a place I love going to from time to time... a place of socialing,yet the ability to relax and chill, where the air is always on and I got my own place to chill in. Remember that I am a diva, a giver, a leaver, a deciever, a manipulator, a lover, a friend, a chicken (when it comes to the dark, snakes & worms). I love my family and friends but hate them also for hurting me and me for hurting them. Remember this isnt to depress you or make you sad hell not even to put a smile on your face....it is what it is ya dig. Remember that I love being in love, am uncontrollable when in lust and can lay my swords down and cover up when in mourning. Remember the looks I would give you and you'd wonder what the hell is wrong wtih me?... its cause I find you beautiful and appreciate you spending time with me.Remember that I love to dance, to dress up for myself or to prepare for some romance, makeup, shoes, photography and all the beauty galour that makes me feel alive and ok to being hella selfish. Remember that Id die for you if you needed me to so that you can have an ounce of happiness again. Remember whenever you'd see a long flowing gown and an open path that its me workign my way to you or just wanting to be admired from afar."Charmed" is my life and my favorite show from the people to the experiences to the feelings that come and go. Remember spring for I was born within it...Earth Day which is why I love to walk bare foot and feel the grass, take in the air and stand in the rain when its roaring of thunder and lightening.Remember Im not to be understood just experienced just another day, another phase, another year before you lay to rest and start all over again. Im independent and love to have my way, dont mind that you have your own life just as long as you never go away, keep me in your heart and mind for as long as you can. Believe in this...Remember me for all that I am.
Lindsay
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Saturday, May 12, 2007
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It Happens (HUH?)......
They seduce you with words of anticipation, looking forward to's and sex... maybe show you a good time and make you feel special for a week a month a season and a half.... than once you give in... they know... its time to bounce; than thats when the dangerous obsession comes to play and it surrounds you, consumes you as life has, takes over you with every single moment... Redemption is what you seek just to rest not to wheep. So ....Why is that we obsess over the ones that arent good for us....But not over the ones that love us?......
Yet it happens huh?
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
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The Mocking Bird
Current mood:  drained
This is suppose to be "The Season" I absolutely adore by allowing my mind to just breathe rather it brings shit to the surface that Ive kept supressed for a while now. Inner demons that laugh at my happiness and joy, Bittersweet accomplishments of doing the dayum thang and moving on, Constant mochery at my life from various views; Bite ya tongue lil one to much honesty is bad for you "Excuse me?"... just let shit breathe boo.... itll get over you "Huh" ... or that good ol fashioned pick me upper from my own dayum self "Grow from love" what if I didnt want to grow from love ? what if I just wanted to go off and snap on everyone that pissed me off, be like fuck it on situations just so I can relax dayum. Why do I have to be the one to constantly repeat shit to others- I dont want to be no ones teacher and I sure as hell aint no mocking bird. My folks on some ish with their own relationship and the emotional tole I have taken on has ended thank god!, I cant sleep in my own bed without someone banging me out my own thoughts... tell you it aint even orientals its just they dont know anything about respect, Friends dodge me and give me quick picke me uppers (something I dont like), Love one man dearly but worry about our personalities/character(s) clashing. One moment we are smooth sailing, love making leavin me cheesin, talking like there aint no tomorrow...then the next I feel like a sudden spotlight has been on me whenever he would make me question our relationshp and how much "Im putting in" and what he may be "lacking" due to his serious precaution mentality and I cant catch my breath...a hallow feeling, sweating feeling, angry/sad/drained/envious/rejected/worried/cold feeling he leaves me. Repeat, Rewind, Undo, Unbind... Good people are hard to find, Good things come to those who wait, Patience is a virtue, Grow from love, Do onto others as you wish for them to do onto you, Understanding is key....Well you know what... "Fucking Remove Me!". Im tired, Im pissed, Im upset, I want to be understood and cherished. Dont give me shit that is "Half Full" due to your experienced optimism give me the "Entire filling" Why cause I deserve it. I love you all but I worry that my feelings wrote a check that my heart cant cash all the time. Sometimes you have to lose some to gain some is what I heard... Is this how life truly is designed to be?... Get filled up then bitch slapped, Be appreciated than mourned, Love then be burned, Experience than left alone...wow... aint that some shit. Well this is where this chapter of my life ends entitled "My Bad Lin...Lemme come at you 1 Mo Gen". Save the Im just human phrase and just do it. If you want me to do something you NEED done than so be it but you better do so amongst me; no if's ,and's or but's... Ill just leave out before you realize it.
Cause its 1 thing 2 remind...Another thing 2 repeat...Im just tired
Your Mocking Bird
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Kingdom Come
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Release date: 21 November, 2006
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
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Angel of Fire
just as nature is nurturing..... she can hold a vengence upon the seas and as the earth shakes beneath her feet the skies blacken as she releases her last breathe and beats her last heart beat
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Monday, November 13, 2006
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Night & Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Category: Romance and Relationships
Whoa!!!!!!!!! these past weekends & weeknights have been something else for me. Spending time with that man my goodness.... Ive been telling my girls and a good round of my fam about him hell even the people that be on some bull shitty ass things. The lovin that we have for one another is so extreme makes a sista wanna put up her martini glass to the far side, her clubbing boots in a box & a fair warning sign that the term "Taken/Involved" is nothing to take lightly when a goddess is so in love. So yea... got a new fun ass job, a man that cant get enough of me (smiling hard as hell) so if my pooky boo just so happen to be reading this... he know how I feel & what makes me turn red (thank you baby). Other than that ya guys Ms.Lin has been enjoying the scenes looking fwd to the spring but mostly the next time I get to spend time with my Pookie Boo and just make some good ol fashion lovin to that fine ass man of mines!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Til then stay stuned
Cause you know I aint neva done reppin my Peeps!!!!!!!!
Love Ya
Lindsay
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Ray!: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack
By
Ray Charles
Release date: 19 October, 2004
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Friday, October 27, 2006
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Beethovens Seductive Side
Category: Romance and Relationships
And so it was written in the book of love that even the most beautifulest of princesses can fall like the arch angels from above... fall into the depths of love or into despairs comforted womb. Like the seasons coming and going as it pleases love is not the type that can be concured yet it teases. So if you dare challenge it for front and steady... Be ready for the notions and silent cries. It will even take over the most viscous creatures inside. It beats for you when need be.. With you when you dare not see.. Along side of you as you wheap and leaves you deep within your sorrow sleep.
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