Blind
Current mood: inspired
Category: Life

Disclaimer: In this entry I will praise the Lord our God many times. All those who are easily offended by God, Jesus Christ, faith, ect., should not read any further.

Perhaps I have been blind all this time. I have been looking so hard for purpose that I have missed it for so long. Now I think it is clear to me.

You have heard the expression, "It's like looking for a needle in a haystack." I see now that I was too focused on finding the needle. I never stood back far enough to see the haystack.

God, praise His name, has been giving me signs all along. I have missed them all, because a part of me did not want to see them . . . the part of me that contains worldly desires . . . the part of me that has goals set for my life . . . the part of me that is blind to God's perfect will.

Last night, after talking with a friend, I had a great epiphany. Everything that has happened in my life for at least the past four years has prepared me for my purpose. Praise God Almighty! I could not even see this until I stood back from my barrier, and forced myself to look at the things I did not want to see. It was painful at first, and to be honest it still is. I realized that even the things I hate about myself were given to me by God for a reason. I am ashamed that I ever doubted Him . . . ashamed that sometimes I hated Him for the hand I got dealt. Still, He has loved me all along. He has known all along, and I trust that he waited to lift the veil from my eyes for a good reason.

"Make God your first priority." That is something I have always heard. You must realize it is not putting God first just to say, "God is my first priority." You must say it with your actions. Thank Him every morning before you leave your bed, and every night before you shut your eyes. Pray to Him before making decisions. Remember the Commandments and take them seriously. Take every one of them seriously.

I am inspired. Thank you God.

I know I am being vague. I do not want to get too specific at the moment.

Also, thank all of you guys for the birthday wishes.

I love you guys.

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