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Ha’Pee-Ness
happiness and joy surround us on a daily basis...
sometimes its hard to see, and even harder to understand...
but it is there none the less...
...it always has been
regardless if you believe that things happen for a reason,
or if you believe they happen for no reason at all...
you are the master/mistress of your own destiny,
its your outlook, attitude, perception that guides you...
you can see the cup half full, half empty,
or you could be the one who peed in the cup...
it happens sometimes that we become ensnared in our own 'negative feedback loop'
when we become overwhelmed with what needs to be done,
what we would like to do, what we havent done yet, what we should be doing,
the stress and anxiety build and build until we can no longer function,
and despite the best intentions of friends, family, loved ones, and partners,
we may lash out at them with the angered stress weve created for ourselves...
...making them the enemy instead of ourselves
depression quickly settles in and completely dehabiltates us...
to the point that we can no longer function, with the possible exception of work
something to distract us and focus our attention away from us,
and what we are not doing...
furthermore; we begin to hold in contempt those who are happy,
or we seek to tear them down to our level (whether intentionally or not)
how dare anyone be happy when i am miserable with myself!
at this point our inner anger and frustration becomes focused outward,
outward on those around us, inparticularly those who love us most...
...because, if they do love us, they will love us no matter what
...no matter how badly we treat them
...no matter how many times we focus the anger at ourselves onto them
...they will always love us, and be there for us
the unfortunate circumstance is, that we end up driving everyone away,
becoming alienated, isolated, and bitter...
how do we change this? who can save us?
how much longer or further can we run from ourselves,
until we catch-up with ourselves again?
how many times do we have to start new relationships because we've left the others in ashes?
how many times do we have to swear to ourselves that this time will be the last time?
the answers, and the ability to change are within you...
make a positive change to one small habit...
for example, open the blinds or the curtains every morning when you wake up,
and close them again before you go to bed...
this is not only a metaphor, but also a physical manifestation of greeting a new day,
...and letting in the light *
take a moment when youre out and about to notice nature,
look at the flora around you as you pass thru your day,
listen to the birds, hear their individual songs, and why they sing...
there is a war to be fought when we want or need to change our paradigm,
but we must win the battles first...
call or email and old friend and apologize for being out of touch,
clean your room or your kitchen, do some gardening,
go for a hike, turn the tv off, do a crossword...
... but these things should be done in small amounts at first,
just enough to make a difference for now...
what you will find is that now there is one less thing that needs to be done,
and as these small accomplishments are made,
and as you slowly begin to 'clean your house',
there will more time to accomplish other things, bigger things...
and along the way you my notice the moments of self-reflection increase,
and answers to questions begin to make themselves apparent...
as the weeks and months pass (this is a long term project mind you)
the battles you fight for and with yourself grow, as you grow in strength...
and soon you will sitting down to write that book, or go back to school,
or find yourself with the renewed ability to have those things that youve always wanted...
your relationships with friend, family and loved ones will strength,
and the people you have always held dearest and nearest to you will be there for you...
change is difficult, and the universe has a sick sense of humor when it comes to testing us...
the path has always been there,
whether or not we choose to see it or follow it,
is up to us...
...but you have to want to change
we are all strong enough to take the first step,
and we grow stronger with every step we take
*the light - as relates to the spirit / awakening / or sunshine
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