is the sky still blue???
Current mood: forgotten
Category: Religion and Philosophy

times have changed.  i'm really not terribly upset with how they've changed; others seem to disagree.  i dunno...i guess i'm just developing the mantra of: "it's only frightening if you let it be."  all told, i don't have to live much differently than i've always lived.  it feels strange when you have your choices taken away, but if you weren't ever really going to utilize them, can you really feel all that bad about it?

Currently reading : The Coconut Crab: Aspects of Birgus Latro Biology and Ecology in Vanuatu (Aciar Monograph Series) By I. W. Brown Release date: January, 1991

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And things go from bad to worse...
Current mood: cantankerous
Category: Life

What's the old adage?  "When it rains, it pours?"

It's true.  I'd pretty much forced myself to take my recent rejection like a man and not be all pissy and downtrodden about it...but what do I find when we get back from Tahiti?

A new Mare who looks EXACTLY like mine.  I mean, they could be twins.

Did I mention that she's under Waiterbot's control, and that he keeps her in a birdcage?  Yeah, there's that too.

If you're having trouble understanding why this is such a problem for me, how can I explain it?  OK, try to remember the worst moment of your entire life.  I mean...the WORST moment.  Now, picture hiring an artist to create an oil painting of that moment, and hanging the painting in your living room so you have to be reminded on the worst moment of your entire life day after day after day.

That's pretty much what I'm going through right now.

Currently reading : Communion: A True Story By Whitley Strieber Release date: 01 February, 1988

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Not the best day I ever had, that’s for sure.
Current mood: depressed

So lemme guess...you want to hear about Tahiti, huh?

Boy...where do I start?

I don't feel like going into a blow-by-blow of the day.  Frankly, I'm still reeling from it.  The short version is...we get there, it's beautiful, it's gorgeous, it's sunny...and it would've been the perfect place to rekindle a little lost love.  But Mare wasn't there.  You know who WAS there, though?  Santa Claus.

Now when I say "Santa Claus" ...I don't mean the one we're working with this year.  I mean last year's, who was a really great guy and a good friend, and who was appropriately jolly if admittedly a bit apathetic towards being Santa.  Which isn't to say he wasn't responsible, because he was, and...oh jeez, I said I didn't want to do a blow-by-blow.

The point is, SANTA saw Mare.  Long time ago, though, and he told me Mare had already gone, and that it wasn't worth trying to track her down because she's, quote unquote, "just that kind of girl."  Turns out, Mare isn't in danger.  She's just flighty.  Way flighty.  Flighty and kind of a jerk who leaves her ex-boyfriends without a clue that they're no longer real boyfriends.  Not that I'm bitter.

So there ya have it.  I dragged Tigerboy all the way to Tahiti for nothing, and I came back with nothing but a broken heart. 

I didn't ask for a broken heart for Christmas.  All I wanted was freakin' sneakers.

Currently listening : A Rush of Blood to the Head By Coldplay Release date: 27 August, 2002

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ON THE ROAD TO TAHITI!
Current mood: crunk
Category: Travel and Places

Well, Tigerboy and I are ALMOST to Tahiti...and boy, is this a long story.  Pull up a chair.  Pour some tea.

K, so, the deal is this: I need to find out if my (ex-?)girlfriend is okay or not.  If she wants nothing to do with me, that's fine...I just need to make sure she isn't in trouble...or worse.

So Tigerboy and I (we made up) are ON THE ROAD, going to Tahiti.  Why?  That's the last spot I KNOW Mare was at.  Hopefully, she stayed there.  Tigerboy and I both feel kind of dumb for completely forgetting to bring warm weather attire.  Tahiti is pretty tropical, and yours truly is going to sweat his nards off.

It'll be an adventure, for sure.  Or as they say in Tahiti...."fa sha, brah!"

Merry December 7th!  Your song of the day is FELIZ NAVIDAD.  You know, the good version.  Mainly for that last chrous, which comes after you think the song's about to end, and then goes five times longer than you predicted!

Yeah!

Currently playing : Jurassic Park: Operation Genesis Release date: 11 March, 2003

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PEOPLE sometimes!
Current mood: bitchy

I really don't understand people sometimes.  Once I think I have them figured out, they surprise me...and not always in a good way. 

The short version of the story is, Tigerboy gave me grief because I ragged on Waiterbot and Mista Snowman about their shitty Advent Calendar gift.  And I mean, yeah, it's not the nicest thing to do in the world...but is it really worth a completely separate party bringing it up six hours later?   What the frick does Tigerboy care if I rag on Waiterbot?  He rags on us all the time!

The truth is that I'm pissy because I keep e-mailing Mare (MY Mare, I mean...the blonde one...my chick-or-reeta) and she won't respond.  I'm not gonna spill my guts to Tigerboy about that though, especially when he's so quick to jump down my throat.

And no, I'm not worried about him seeing this.  1, he hasn't logged into MySpace for like a year, and 2, I stand behind my words.

Currently listening : Sex Violence Rap et Flooze By Busta Flex Release date: 29 February, 2000

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It’s the holiday season! (the holiday season!)
Current mood: bouncy

Hello, friends!  I know I haven't been too prolific on this blog, but you know how it goes.  I'll try to be around more often, though it could be tough considering that today is December 1st!  In just a short while, Santa is going to 'present' (get it?) us with this year's brand new Advent Calendars, and I don't need to tell you...they can eat up a lot of my time.

Everyone's been doing pretty okay lately, for the most part.  No major incidents.  Well, there is one thing -- we moved into a new house!  Totally true.  Kuse took on some big city corporate job so he could afford it, and it's kept him pretty fucking busy lately.  To be honest, I barely ever even see him anymore.  Either does Mare, apparently, because she's always pacing around the house with a phone in one hand and scotch in the other.  I'm not talking about Scotch tape, folks.  She's been hammered for like a week straight.

Shit, I should probably go check on her.  I'll be back later, guys.  Kuse couldn't get out of work today, and I know Mare's upset that he's not gonna be here for the big Adventy debut.  Later!

Currently watching : Star Wars Ewok Adventures - Caravan of Courage (aka The Ewok Adventure) / The Battle for Endor Release date: 23 November, 2004

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WEIRD things in "How The Grinch Stole Christmas"
Current mood: indescribable

NOT THE JIM CARREY VERSION...I'm talkin' about the TOON!  

It was on TV about a week ago...TBS I think...and though the Christmas purist in me thought that it was a little early for Grinchy action, it was nice to see so much red and green during a month that's usually all about turkeys and tryptophan.

BUT!  There were two things I noticed that never struck me as odd before, but for whatever reason, did now.

1) The part where the Grinch has second thoughts about trashing Whoville's gifts.  The sack of presents is about to nosedive off a cliff, and Grinch isn't strong enough to save them...until his heart grows three sizes.  Aren't enlarged hearts usually the sign of a serious health problem?  Even if they spoke metaphorically, how would this give him super strength??! 

2) The whole dinner scene at the end is weird.  Okay, so the Grinch decided not to be a jerk.  I can understand that the people of Whoville wanted to be forgiving in the spirit of Christmas...but they give the guy the seat at the head of the table?  It's like...if someone stole your car, but gave it back, you might decide not to press charges, but you wouldn't CROWN the guy.  Also, when he's slicing up the meat, check out the size of the slice he gives little Cindy Loo Who.  It's wwwwaaaaay too big for a child of her age and size.  I don't know why, but that bothers me.  I don't like to see food go to waste.

I LOOOOVE Max the Dog, though.  Every scene with Max is ~the win~.  He's the perfect dog, and if you think about it, really served as the prototype for so many other perfect dogs in cartoondom to come.  Yay Max!

Currently playing : Jenga Release date: 13 November, 2007

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Wow, it’s been like 30000 years...
Category: Writing and Poetry

I can't believe how LONG it's been since I last updated you on the daily goings of me, Knacks.

Well, it's been an interesting year to say the least.  I mean, it's been SLOW, but it's always a little slow for me from January-November.  But interesting?  Definitely.

And with Thanksgiving coming up, I'm left wondering what "that month" has in store.  I'm tryin' not to worry about it too much, though, especially because I offered to make Thanksgiving dinner for my crew.  Why?  I have no idea.  One minute we were talking about theme parks, and then next minute I'm like, "HEY EVERYONE I WILL MAKE THANKSGIVING DINNER!"  It was like I had Tourette's, only I didn't take advantage by cursing anyone out or turning the word "cunt" into an adverb.

Aside from the usual TG foods, I'm thinking about serving gnocchi as the first course.

Hope you are all treating yourselves well and I will have more to say soon!

Currently watching : Heroes - Season One Release date: 28 August, 2007

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....hi?
Current mood: confused

So now that I have some free time...what should I DO with it??

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Reflections.
Current mood: chipper

Dear friends,

 I hope you're having a wonderful Christmastime.

I'm having a hard time figuring out if this has been a good year that felt bad, or a bad year that felt good.  It's been one for the books, I know that much.  At the beginning of December, I was a little off.  Most of you know that.  Things that shouldn't have been bothering me, were bothering me.  I was snippy, snapping and a bunch of other 'S' words that I won't repeat here, because I run a family blog.

When I reflect on all that's gone on this month, yeah, there's some serious crapola.  I spent much of the Christmas season pissed at my friends.  Then I made up with them, and some of them got kidnapped.  Then I had to fight these beastly, burly men who almost killed me.  Then I got kidnapped myself, and by my old crush, at that!

On the other hand, there was a whole bunch of goodness.  I became a godfather, I made a great new friend in Tigerboy, and in some roundabout way, I can be co-credited with saving Christmas entirely.  Whereas most people's Christmas success barometer rests on the shoulders of whether or not Santa brings them a PS3, I can't help being proud of having something more meaningful.

Plus, I got to tongue this really hot blonde for like ten minutes straight.

When I joined MySpace, I was shocked by how many friends I found.  You guys really made a lost soul feel special.  I also got to approve a lot of YouTube-laden comments, and I always felt like a department director giving someone the go-ahead whenever I did.  It was cool.

Sure, when my 'real life friends' and I made up, I kinda stopped being such a MySpace addict.  It doesn't mean I stopped caring.  I just needed a better balance.

Christmas is today, and like always, it's a good day.  Everything that happened before, every bad thing -- it just doesn't seem to matter anymore.  I don't know if it's Christmas that makes that happen or something else entirely, but I'm eternally thankful for it.  And not that bullshit Thanksgiving kind of thankful.  Christmas thankful.  Really thankful.

I don't know what the future holds for me, or for my friends, but I'm feeling pretty okay about it.  I'm glad y'all hopped on the train and shared these trials and triumphs with me.  You've encouraged me even in times when it couldn't have mattered.

Merry Christmas, guys.  I hope yours does as much for you as mine did for me.  See ya around.

Love, Knacks.

Currently listening : Do They Know It's Christmas By Band Aid 20 Release date: 02 December, 2004

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