I think my Twilight Obession is getting out of hand...

Today my friend made a Twilight comic involving me! hahahah

I know I should probably chill out on the Twilight.... but I can't >.<
hahaha

Currently reading : Breaking Dawn (The Twilight Saga, Book 4) By Stephenie Meyer Release date: 2008-08-02

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My new fvorite saying :]

He looked up at me, his expression too sullen and pitiable to continue with my teasing.

"Why so sullen Edward Cullen?"

Gah, so amazing <3

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Desperation and Myspace Tracker?

HAHAHAHHA.
Oh man, it's true. I thought those were fake too. So fellow myspacers, watch your back.

HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

I keep laughing! I mean, honestly. A real honest to vlog, myspace tracker. It's real! Oh silly.

Writing time? Suuuure.

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In fits of desperation it's often that you find yourself clinging to whatever cracks in the foundation you can. And yes, I am listening to Kate Nash, so it's fueling the fire. Oh, now it's Eagle Eye Cherry... Ahem. Anyway.
What I am saying is, when you are most desperate you are willing to let yourself stoop to low levels. You let yourself get carried away by your drive to stay afloat in whatever sea of worries you are currently drowning in. I get it, survival mode. So here is my advice, when you find yourself slowly sinking, let yourself sink. Don't go crazy in your attempt to hold onto whatever you are trying not to lose. If it's meant to be, you won't lose it. Besides, when you sink to the bottom all that's left is climbing back up.

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Cheers.

Stop it.

I can see what you are doing, and it's pissing me off to watch you keep up with it. Over and over again you've been fucked over, and over and over again you beat yourself up over it. FUCK THEM. You deserve so much better, but because of these bitches fucking up your head, I know it's hard for you to realize that. One day you will finally meet someone who isn't such a conniving whore. You deserve it, even if you don't believe it.

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sometimes i think this cycle never ends
we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again
and it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
the squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.

but if i move my place in line i'll lose.
and i have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.

i am waiting for something to go wrong.
i am waiting for familiar resolve.

sometimes it seems that i don't have the skills to recollect
the twists and turns of plot that turned us from lovers to friends
i'm thinking i should take that volume back up off the shelf
and crack it's weary spine and read to help remind myself

but if i move my place in line i'll lose.
and I have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.

i am waiting for something to wrong
i am waiting for familiar resolve
i am waiting for another repeat
another diet fed by crippling defeat
and i am waiting for that sense of relief
i am waiting for you to flee the scene
as if you held in your hand the smoking gun
and on the floor lay the one you said you loved.

and it's strange
they are all basically the same
so i don't ask names anymore.

sometimes i think this cycle never ends
we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again
and it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
the squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.

the squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse (x2)

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not done.

As I walked into Grubbies and Lo, I saw him standing there.
He didn't see me watching him.

 Which is a good thing, seeing how I looked like shit. Of course, who was I kidding? I always look like shit. What is the difference between today and any other? There isn't. Thank you brain, you are always so kind.

The heat was horrible. The air felt more like butter than oxygen. The sun melting it, causing it to drip and flow off my body like some kind of disgusting river. Overall, not an attractive look for anyone. Someone near by coughed. I was startled out of my mind ramblings and my eyes searched for him.

 Stupid, stupid girl! I thought as I cringed.

While I was zonking out, I didn't notice that he had wandered away. Well, I deserved it. I was after all staring. I let out a gusty sigh and turned around, ready to leave. As I began to walk out out of the store, I heard a low chuckle coming from my righ side.

"Don't leave on my account," he said in that slow, gorgeous drawl that I loved.

[[I need to finish this, but I gotta go.]]

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My 100th. Let’s paragraph shall we?

You've got those eyes girl. The type of orbs that could suck a man or the ever hopeful converting woman dry. I have been caught in your glare before. I pity those who follow my footsteps.

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If I listened to anything that the Beatles have said, it's to not carry the world on my shoulders. Then again, the song was projected to Jude and not Treesha. So technically I shouldn't feel inclined to do shit. Yet for some odd reason, I listen to that song and I want to be worry free and stressless. Then I start to think of all the things i'd have to do in order to feel that way and I become more stressed than I already was. So fuck you Beatles! Your words may be beautiful, but realistic they are not.

I kid I kid. I love them still... those bastards.
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For my 100th blog, I am writing a new short story. Or maybe 101.. I don't know. I am working on it now. K bye. ;]

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Alice Jaleson

While dining on my favorite snack straight off of the corner deli stand, I saw something out of the corner of my eye. There on the pavement, was a shadow. Nothing unusual for a June day nearing 2 pm. What was strange, was that the shadow was growing larger by each milisecond.


Chewing on my carrot stick I looked towards the sky. A body was sailing downwards. A couple of chews later, I realized that the body was actually a girl. I would have liked to have made a better guess to her age and facial features but her hair kept whipping in her face.


Before I finished the last of my carrot, my own body was sprayed with a forceful impact. Blood, guts and bits of bone matted my hair, face and clothing. Her body, or what was left of it I should say, was laying on the pavement in a very ungraceful manner. Picking a bit of the girl off of my carrot, I tossed the remnants of the stick into my mouth. A few thoughtful chews later, I looked at the girl then noticed what looked like a wallet sticking out of her pocket. Needless to say, I pulled it out of the corpse. Thumbing though it, I learned her name was Alice Jaleson and that she had $57.83 on her.


I pulled out the bills and scooped the coins out of the side pouch and put them in my pocket.


"Alice Jaleson, I do believe you just got robed."

I then procceeded towards my home to take a shower, but not before buying a coke from the nearest vending machine.

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If you want the truth.

If you want the truth, I went looking for you. I know you asked me not to, and I know I shouldn't have. I went despite your pleading. I took your fate into my own hands, and still, it slipped though my fingers. I went looking to find you in a vain attempt to find comfort. I thought you were the cure to my pain. I was wrong, just as you said I would be.

It was in that moment, the moment that I failed that I discovered something far more valuable than a momentary fix. I realized that in my searching, in my fallings and stumblings I found that I could look disappointment in the face and shout good tidings.

It's true that you yourself abandoned my side, but now I know the cause. I no longer cry, but I do ache. I ache for you to come running back into my cold arms and warm them with your body. I ache for your smile, the one that shows more in your eyes than your mouth. I ache for your quick wit and sharp tounge. I ache for the person I was when I was with you. I ache for you completly and with my whole being. I ache for you to come home to me.

As painful as the aches are, I can greet them with opens arms. I am sure that if you are reading this you are puzzled beyond all doubt. I have proved you wrong. You said yourself that I was a fool if I thought I loved you. Well dear, I love you. I love you. I love you. I will always love you and I will always want you. The pain I feel as each day passes only proves that.

So I contuine to search for you. To prove to you.
Until I find you, until I clasps your hands and kiss your mouth, I will contuine to remian an empty shell.

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Another mini part from my book :]

[[Your welcome Cynthia. haha]]

"Adrie, I love you. I've always loved you and I think I am going to love you for as long as I live."

I suddenly realized that I wasn't going to be able to keep my promise.

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"Avery..w-w-wait...wuh..what?" I choked out. He was still holding me by the shoulders, if he hadn't been, I am quite sure I would have fallen. He couldn't have actually said those words, I must have been mistaken. Those were the words I should be saying to him. It didn't make sense, none of this did.

"Emma, it's true. I do, really."

The way he said it, it almost sounded like a confession. Like he was taking a huge load from off of his shoulders. That couldn't be true though, it just couldn't.

I wanted very much to say some of what I was thinking. I wanted to be able to speak period, but my mouth was all dried up. My tounge glued it self onto the roof of my mouth, and my body was numb. The only thing that was proof that I was even awake was Avery's strong grip on my shoulders.

I am sure he could sense that I wasn't able to talk, because he plowed forward.

"I know this must be somewhat of a shock to you, but I've felt this way for longer than I can remember." He turned away from me, and I could tell even in this dim light that he was blushing. 

I was trying to get my mouth to work right, I managed to make some kind of odd squeak. He turned back to me at that moment. With a swift movment, he gently placed a finger to my lips.

"Em, let me just get this out okay?" He gave a half-assed smile and lowered his hand. "Honestly, if you interupt me I think I won't finish."

He gulped and looked away for a second. Turning back to me, his eyes met mine and held them there for the longest of moments. I am sure it was like a second, but it felt so much longer than that. Looking into his eyes, things were suddenly clicking into place. In a mere second, I knew that his next choice of words were some that I needed to hear. Not just wanted, but literally needed. I was going to do everything I could for him to get them out. With my eyes, I urged him on. With a weak, nervous smile and opened his mouth, and then began to speak.

[[To becontuined... h aha]]

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