first dates
Category: Writing and Poetry

first dates

can be so scary.make every hair stand on end.
let alone you you wait for that chance to shine
that chance to let that person in front of you
that your mine
your dream so big and at times the outcome isnt what your pictured
so you wait and listen for that one that sweeps you off your feet.
the only you want to meet over and over again.
the one that makes your life go a 360.
no matter where you meet them.in the end the result will be the same.
whether you might this person online or at a bar.man is still a man.
a woman is still a woman.unless they have something else going on then thats just a completely different story.people still lie like its a job resume.
its about taking chances.with this 50/50 shot.
your first date can be a beginning to a beautiful plot.

Currently listening : Drawing Days Release date: 2006-10-25

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urkel
Category: Writing and Poetry

i know me.
so i ask myself.
here we go.
i just have to ask.
go out with me?


now i know me. not ever good with the dating scene.

i pulled a urkel.


at times i come off shy.with friends i'm mad confident.with hot girls its like am i from another world.hold ya breath just dive in.if this was the Olympics i would'nt even get the bronze.

i know me.
so i ask myself.
here we go.
i just have to ask.
go out with me?

now i know me. not ever good with the dating scene.

i pulled a urkel

emotions running round and round.just not the way your thinking.this merry go round aint feeling so good.i think i'm gonna puke.turn into mush.can't talk to no girls with no skank breath.hand me some gum.all of this just to hear she likes me.maybe the blood flow can finally reach up stairs.

i know me.
so i ask myself.
here we go.
i just have to ask.
go out with me?


now i know me. not ever good with the dating scene.

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not worth my time
Category: Writing and Poetry

i couldn't get rid even if i wanted.throw around so many hint.i need a stamp so i can put i dont want around on her forehead.yet she would just laugh.like i was just jokin.seem she has no common sense.shock she even knows how to pay her own rent.landlord probably bent of shape.she annoying on a steve urkel level.no opps involve yes you really did that.dont try to laugh it up just go.

it takes even ounce of me not to cuz her out.
sure she wouldn't play attention what i was yelling about.
i turn around and just want away.
not even worth my time.



like back in the day on the school bus she was just so stupid and loud.i dont know why she wanted all that negative attention.all i know i dont want to be around.every time i wanted to tell my mom about my awards that i got in basketball and school.be fore i could spit out the sentence my mom already knew.then she be getting into fights cuz she was trying to holla at a another girls man.so embarrassing.your on your own with all that mess.

it takes even ounce of me not to cuz her out.
sure she wouldn't play attention what i was yelling about.
i turn around and just want away.
not even worth my time.


now she got two kids.both by different dads some  stuff you think you would hear on jerry springer or maury.call people without asking for who she wants to speak too.callin my grandma trying to get her to take her kids.all that bs just pisses me off.she needs to get her act together.time to grow up too grown to act like a child then be left by everyone good bye.


it takes even ounce of me not to cuz her out.
sure she wouldn't play attention what i was yelling about.
i turn around and just want away.
not even worth my time.

Currently listening : Exit 13 By LL Cool J Release date: 2008-09-09

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i just want to hold you
Category: Writing and Poetry

i just want to hold you

close your eyes picture yourself when you was young.now think now how you liked to be impressed not like now a days when guys think there big bank accounts gets you in the bed.theres no affection.when your yound holding hands becomes the best.now the guys your went so there too busy or tired from work to put no effort in.why you put up with it.i have no clue but i'm tell you.

you dont have to go through it.

just get with me.let me hold your hand.(i just want to hold you)
cuddle your body. dont care what time it is.
dont have to always be so verbal with  your stress.
dont talk.just hold me.(i just want to hold you)


you got your hair done.he didnt even care. got you a new  a new mani and pedi.he wouldnt even know what color polish it is.your moods change so much.not like the girl i used to know.you used to talk about how you hated them desperate house wifes now your slowing turning into one.a life with out love aint one of those dreams you had as a little girl.you cant live this way.


you dont have to go through it.

just get with me.let me hold your hand.(i just want to hold you)
cuddle your body. dont care what time it is.
dont have to always be so verbal with  your stress.
dont talk.just hold me.(i just want to hold you)


dont you want to float in dreams.instead you live in a end less mini hell.you got to see what out in the world but you'll never see if you stay where your at.i dont care if you dont get with me but damn girl i want to see you free.open the cage and you'll see the light.

you dont have to go through it.

just get with me.let me hold your hand.(i just want to hold you)
cuddle your body. dont care what time it is.
dont have to always be so verbal with  your stress.
dont talk.just hold me.(i just want to hold you)

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unclear
Current mood: artistic
Category: Writing and Poetry

when i need to clear my head i usually go on a walk.my mind can clear after each corner i near though at time i tend to be in deep thought too much that i dont stop to look both ways.no good thats how i get hit by  a car.i try never to walk past a bar just because half the time i know i'll go in for a beer.drinking at times can help you forget or bring all those back even more.so i just continue on.thinking in my head.thoughts can be on never ending road sometimes unclear.never any voices near.my mind can wander at time but my feet stay on point.the minds job is to lead in the direction i need to go.

my mind is still  unclear.

i end up back at  my house like my mind has been through an adventure.i haven't even left town.so i think down to silent and think again because to me silence is bliss.then i put in a cd thats really kickback so i can just mellow out.as i search for enlighten i realize i still dont have this mediation stuff down.so the been the pencil and paper are next.when i can just write anything even if its just rambling on.i seem to make sense out of some would think is non sense.some days i have no thoughts other days my mind cant stop.yet no matter what i'll always find something to write about for another day.it usually beginnings with my mind is unclear.

my mind is still unclear

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janis joplin x beatles dont know
Category: Writing and Poetry

i really just dont know .why didnt she pick up the phone.the first night we talk it went on for hours.had so many things in common.then the next night she came over.she just got off work.i saw her and knew she be a fit for me.she even emt my mother and i never let girls meet my mother.we cuddled on my bed.listening the janis joplin.talking about how we love ehr music.she was a bigger fan than me.like the music and words of janis touch touched her in way i would just adore.telling me random facts about her thats shows a true fan right there.then i switched it to the beatles.were singing along to the words.then songs reminded us of wild times we had.exchanging funny stories.having her find out i had beatles songs she never heard.i gave her a kiss good night as she left.i wondered if it was right to kiss as much as i did.maybe i should of relaxed on it.who knows though i’ve call ed her twice and still hasnt called me back.dont know what to do.should i try to call her again or should i move on?

Currently listening : Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band By The Beatles

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xroad

i lay awake thinking.things wont go away.get the pencil and paper.let the therapy begin.sometimes you face problems.no solution in sight.they say the bad things in life make you stronger i want them to go away.

at a crossroads.dont know what path to take.
i keep falling.someone please catch me.
take all of the bad away.

your only giving what you can handle.i just dont find that true.everything happens for a reason.every struggle  were forced to deal with although we dont know the reason at the time.could this be part of a master plan.just hope to survive .all the good you could see.

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fades
Category: Writing and Poetry

when it comes to things.
get distracted turn away.
doesn’t take too much.
easily my attention fades away.
cant stay on task.

i got an open book. need to study cant concentrate.so i go on the net for a break .then it sucks me in.start to chat the time away.a new message pops up when i just want to sign off.so i just reply it be rude just to leave it there.get glued to the screen.what the hell was i doing before?conversations  in different windows.dont know.do i really need a reason?when i’m finally done its like 2 am. so we’ll in bed i wonder what i did to lead to this.


when it comes to things.
get distracted turn away.
doesn’t take too much.
easily my attention fades away.
cant stay on task.

Currently listening : Dedication 2 By Lil Wayne Release date: 04 September, 2006

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keeping something for too long
Category: Writing and Poetry

at times i tend to keep things longer than i really should .papers,pictures(from magazines ,etc),clothing.even to feelings of past relationships and people that i have met.how to get of those things i have no clue.sometimes keeping these things can hurt me,make feel down ,happy,or most of all remember better times.i have the memories of these things but i feel connect to these things in way that if i lost some of them i lost part of myself.like if i lost my grandfather green robe i would feel like i had nothing of his.though i have one other thing of his.i don’t remember much of him.i was a child when he left this world.so those items are the only things that when i see them i have an instant connection like i can relive that moment when i was a child with him even my infant days.can you cherish something for too long?even if it means that much too you?do you keep a hold of everything or do you let it all go and start back up fresh?Questions i ask myself all the time.

Currently listening : LIL WAYNE / THE EMPIRE - THE DROUGHT IS OVER PT.2 (CARTER 3 SESSIONS MIXTAPE!) By THE EMPIRE / LIL WAYNE

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uninspired
Category: Writing and Poetry

uninspired

my mind went blank.you can call it writers block.it hella pissed me off.didnt have a clear thought.couldn’t finished what i wanted to say.no movement on the paper.no typing of my keyboard.just thinking why.why says nothing back.so i think again.my mind turns to puzzle pieces mixed up everywhere.not knowing where they go.tried drawing to get my creativity going then i hit that road block of blankness again.no muse .no just looking outside to see and words flow into my mind.more like my word count was still at zero.even when i would read my fav books still nothing.sometimes the things in life make you want to write.how someone treats you or how you treat them.past relationships or that person you just told them how you really feel.

Currently listening : LIL WAYNE DA DROUGHT 3 (MIXTAPE) 2 DISC SET By LIL WAYNE

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