I’m not dead!
Current mood: tired

Okay so I'm fucking tired and I'll elaborate on this blog later on today maybe or even Sunday so hopefully all you kids will enjoy it. When I get the chance to finish it~

Anyway here are the main points of what's been happening and like I said, more details will follow ASAP-

* My grandma, aunt (my grandma's sister) and uncle arrived here on the 4th of July so this weekend is going to be filled with action-packed... fun XD You know how older people are... But it's nice to see my grandma after not having seen her for 8 months. Homemade Mexican food= WIN. I've been deprived of chile rellenos and chilaquiles for too long *_*

* I'm nearly done with my summer class. There's one more class session left and the last thing to do is to have a rehearsal/practice and then it's onto doing our "gig" on stage on Tuesday night.

* My brother's leaving around the third week of July and visiting friends until sometime in August so that means weeks without me having anyone to bug.

* My mom got a job at a software/computer company that sells, GET THIS, anime and manga software, you know, like how to programs that let you create your own anime and manga. And for breaks her boss told her that they play video games or read manga. My mom said there was a whole bookcase full of manga when she went for her interview and that the interviewer was surprised that my mom knew what manga was XD They were also interested in me since I have quite some knowledge on anime and manga and wanted to know if I was working anywhere else because they would love to have me working for them, lol :P

* Is it weird that I have dreams where I'm driving and I lose control of the car or I turn too wide and crash into something or I'm driving and my brakes suddenly give out? Man, I got problems XD lmao

That's all I can think of for now. More to come soon!

Currently listening : The Dethalbum (Deluxe Edition) (2CD) By Dethklok Release date: 2007-09-25

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Catch Up Blog.
Current mood: hungry

I'm still alive, don't worry.

:P

I've been busy with work and some school stuff and other things that I haven't been on MySpace all that much. But I have a feeling that I'm back. At least until I have to start doing something else.

Well let's see, what's been happening with me. Still working, making that dollar XD I started a summer class on Monday. It's called beginning jazz/pop solo voice and no it's literally not a voice class. It's a singing class that teaches you how to transpose your voice (finding the right key for you to sing in), breathing techniques, stage presence, and how to hold a microphone correctly. I love it. Of course you have to get over the initial fear of singing in front of a class of about 16 people that you don't know but after you sing that first song it's a piece of cake. Well, at least it was for me. I've been in front of an audience before singing and acting.

Karaoke in front of people in public places really pays off. It's good practice, haha. Right now I'm singing the jazz standard Dream A Little Dream. Not my first choice but I needed to pick a song to work on by the second class and I just chose that one. It turns out that song has one of the hardest transitions ever written into a song (so says my teacher) and I didn't know that, so when my teacher and the piano player told me that I nailed the bridge which switches dramatically from low to high I was like "...Seriously?" XD

I was first thinking of doing this one ballad called My Foolish Heart but ballads aren't the way to go at first. Ugh, ballads XD You really have to get emotional with those. I'm gonna work my way up to that one. Oh yeah, right now we're singing along to a piano but then we're switching to a guitar which will dramatically alter the song we're used to singing. And since it's an acoustic guitar it's gonna be quiter than an acoustic piano (obviously XD) so I'm thinking that everyone in the class will be like should I sing quieter...? Lol... Yeah.

I can't wait for the final for that class though. We go over to this one restaurant that has a stage where local jazz and other types of bands play and we have my teacher's jazz band behind us which is composed of a piano player, guitarist(s) using acoustic and/or electric, a bass player either using a stand-up bass or an electric one, and a drummer. And out of the 4 songs that you work on in the class you pick the one that you're the best at and that sounds the best and you get up on stage and sing it to the audience. Oh yeah. It's gonna be awesome :D

Wow, that was a mouthful XD I think that's about it... Yep. I'm pretty sure that's it.

Currently watching : Sweeney Todd - The Demon Barber of Fleet Street Release date: 2008-04-01

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Death of an acquaintance.
Current mood: weird

Last night Jenna informed me that Arielle died in a car crash on Friday May 16th and honestly it made me feel kinda weird. I've never known anyone, like someone that I talked to and hung out with a couple times (courtesy of Jose and James) that well, died. Usually when I hear about someone who dies in my age group it's just someone who goes to my school or someone I heard about but have no clue who they are or what kind of person they are, etc. But this was someone who I had been in the same vicinity as and like it just made me realize that everyday has to be lived like you're going to die. Today could be your last day alive. It's pretty scary actually  

I never wish death on anyone, even if I hate everything about a person including their insides, organs, guts and all. For me death is way too final. In the blink of an eye a person's life can end just like that. I wasn't close to Arielle or anything but... is it weird that I feel strange knowing that I had talked to and kinda known someone and now they're not here anymore? This may sound horrible and all but I'm glad it wasn't someone who I was close to like a good friend or family member because then I would really be a fucking mess. But still, it's sad that her life had to end or anyone's life had to end in that car as a matter of fact.

R.I.P. Arielle

Currently watching : Metalocalypse - Season One Release date: 2007-10-02

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Empty.

You know, moving does a  lot of shit to you. Actually scratch that, existing does a lot of shit to you.

Friends do a lot of shit to you. I guess they saying is true how true friends stab you in the back, not the front.

And if you think I’m directing this at you, reader, then fucking message me and we’ll deal with it like adults.

So it goes like this. Even before I moved, did anyone call me when they knew I wasn’t doing jack shit and ask me "Hey Sarah, you wanna go to a movie?" "Sarah, I think it would be fun if we went somewhere" or even "Sarah, come over and we’ll hang out." You might think this is way outta line but I’m about ready to say, SOME FRIENDS YOU ARE. Now you’re thinking, "Sarah calm down, you’re acting like a total bitch, blah blah BLAH keep this up and I’m not going to associate with you anymore BLAH BLAH BLAH."

Before you go all fucking judgemental on me, lemme give you a rundown on my life. My social life SUCKS. It always has, probably always will be. I can’t seem to keep friends for more than 3 years it seems and then some go and make up bullshit about how I was treating THEM like shit and whatnot, how I stopped paying attention to them and other fucking bullshit. And so when I find a friend I like and can enjoy spending time with, they all of a sudden are absorbed in some other person who just happens to be the fucking greatest motherfucker alive and then they fucking leave me in the back of their mind.

Now you may think "Oh well I’ve been there, you’ll get over it" NO SHUT THE FUCK UP. For one time, JUST ONE TIME I WANT A FRIEND I CAN COUNT ON AND DOESN’T FUCKING ABANDON ME. YOU WANNA HEAR THE REAL STORY? WELL YOU GOT THE FUCKING REAL STORY COMING YOUR WAY MOTHERFUCKER. ALL MY LIFE I’VE NEVER HAD FRIENDS THAT I COULD HANG OUT WITH THAT DIDN’T FIND THE NEXT BEST THING EVERY FUCKING TIME. IF I FIND A FRIEND OR FRIENDS THAT I HAVE FUN WITH, WHAT DO THOSE PEOPLE DO? GO OFF. LEAVE ME. FIND OTHERS AND SARAH BECOMES A THING OF THE PAST. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN A LONER AND NO ONE WANTED TO TALK TO YOU? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL THAT JUST BECAUSE YOU DIDN’T TALK TO THIS FUCKING PERSON OR THAT FUCKING PERSON WITHIN A GROUP THAT A SELECT NUMBER OF PEOPLE FEEL THE NEED TO SHUN YOU? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU KNEW THAT YOUR FRIENDS WERE GOING OUT AND HAVING FUN WITH NEW PEOPLE AND THEY DIDN’T TAKE THE FUCKING TIME TO ASK IF YOU WANTED TO MEET THESE NEW PEOPLE AND ASK IF YOU WANTED TO GO WITH THEM? WOULD YOU CARE TO KNOW HOW MANY NIGHTS I’VE STAYED AWAKE BEING FUCKING DEPRESSED AND CRYING OUT OF MY MIND BECAUSE MY FRIENDS HAD BASICALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT ME? NO I DON’T THINK YOU WOULD CARE TO KNOW BECAUSE IF YOU’RE READING THIS YOU PROBABLY DON’T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT ME ANYWAY, BECAUSE GUESS WHAT YOU’VE FOUND NEW PEOPLE TO GO HAVE FUN WITH. IT’S GETTING HARDER TO TYPE BECAUSE I’M FUCKING SOBBING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW AND I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING MESS.

AND THEN, WHOOP DEE DEE, I GO AND MOVE AND NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE AND THEY GIVE ME THE TYPICAL OH NO, YOU’RE MOVING, I’M GONNA MISS YOU AND OTHER FUCKING SHIT. YOU’RE PROBABLY THINKING THAT I’M JUST FLYING OFF AT THE MOUTH AND I NEED COUNSELING WELL JUST GIVE ME FUCKING ROOM TO VENT AND MAYBE THEN I’LL FEEL BETTER. MAYBE I DO HAVE ISSUES WITH PEOPLE. MAYBE I DO NEED HELP. BUT AT LEAST ALONG THE WAY CAN’T I HAVE SOME SUPPORT FROM PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT? FROM PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME? HELL FROM PEOPLE WHO ACT LIKE THEY CARE ABOUT ME???? JUST FOR ONE SECOND PUT YOURSELF IN MY PLACE. ONE FUCKING SECOND. GO AHEAD.

I KNEW IT. YOU DIDN’T WANT TO BE THERE DID YOU?

AND NOW MOVING HAS GONE AND FUCKED ME UP EVEN MORE SINCE I HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN AND MEET NEW PEOPLE, MAKE NEW FRIENDS, ALL THE WHILE KNOWING THAT FRIENDS THAT NEVER CALLED ME ARE CALLING MY OTHER FRIENDS AND MAKINNG PLANS WITH THEM TO GO PLACES AND DO STUFF AND IT JUST STARTED HAPPENING RIGHT AFTER I MOVE AND HAVING IT IRK ME TO DEATH.

I MEAN

DOES ANYONE MISS ME? WHO MISSES ME??? SHOULD I BE MISSED? MAYBE NO ONE GIVES A FUCK. MAYBE NO ONE MISSES ME. I’M NOT MEMORABLE AT ALL.

AND NO THOSE AREN’T QUOTES FROM THE EVANESCENCE SONG CALLED MISSING BUT THAT’S WHAT I FEEL LIKE RIGHT NOW.

I’M NOT MISSED.

NOT

ONE

BIT

AND MAYBE I DO NEED HELP, I PROBABLY HAVE ISSUES, I NEED TO WORK ON MY PEOPLE SKILLS BUT WHO THE HELL KNOWS WHEN THAT’S GONNA HAPPEN.

YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS WITH THIS BLOG YOU MESSAGE ME. I’LL BE GOING TO BED FOR 3 WEEKS NOW.

BYE

P.S. OH AND I REALLY APPRECIATE EVERYONE WHO CALLED IN AS A REFERENCE TO MY ASPIRING JOB, TO PROVE THAT I DON’T SOUND LIKE A TOTAL CUNT. IT REALLY MEANT A LOT.

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Might be coming to Orange soon.
Current mood: tired

Yeah, not entirely sure though. It would be during my spring break which is from the 24th (of March) to the 29th. But if this blog still remains up until that time I’ll be updating if I’m going or not. And if this blog gets deleted then that means I’ll know for sure when that I’m not going.

Currently playing : Super Smash Bros. Brawl Release date: 09 March, 2008

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A very unlikely job interview for me...
Current mood: giggly

At Limited Too XD

I submitted my application today after school at about 5 pm and by 8 they called my house and scheduled an interview with me. I was so excited that I nearly forgot what time I needed to be there and called them back to clarify the time, lol XD I'm not getting my hopes up that high yet though because you never know. There could always be another person better than the next guy i.e. me. But I've applied for countless jobs and this is the first one that's actually called me, rather than me calling them to ask if they went through applications yet.

Now I know what you're thinking: SARAH? Possibly working at LIMITED TOO??? You know what, I'm gonna take anything I can get at this point. I'm nearly exhausted with my job hunt. The experience from a job is the big thing. Get me some of that and then I can apply more easily anywhere like say Borders or something like that.

Here's to hoping I get the job.

Currently playing : Kirby 64: The Crystal Shards

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College life.

Well, I finally start college on Monday. I would have started sooner but since I had to move I didn't start yet. If I had started I would have had to go to school for a month and a half and then get taken out and then apply to another school in the area I live in now. So it wasn't worth it.

Anyways this class I'm starting on Monday is only a 4 week one as it's in the winter session. It's called jazz appreciation. I would have taken psychology but I eventually decided against that as a 4 week class because I would like to stay in that one longer as I find it interesting. So I decided to take something fun. There was something called survey of American music but that class was full so I just stuck with jazz appreciation. Doesn't bother me as I like jazz music and my grandfather was a jazz pianist so I'm sure that it would have made him happy :]

I signed up for the spring session too. I had to go full time but whatever. Gets more classes out of the way for me. I registered for psychology, Japanese, sociology and women's studies. All the required classes like English and math ones were already full so I was like "Damn, guess I have to take those in the fall then." Whatever. As long as I got classes to take it's all good.

I'm so glad I'm out of high school.

Currently watching : Metalocalypse - Season One Release date: 02 October, 2007

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Who wants to go to Europe with me!?!? :D
Current mood: awake

When: Sometime in 2009. Around mid-June I think.

Why: After my brother's graduation, him and a bunch of friends and me as well are going to party it up over there.

How long will it last?: About 75 days through 35 places. 75 days equals 2 months and about 15 days. If you have a birthday in June, July, or August and decide to go with me, congratulations, you're going to have a birthday in Europe.

What countries are going to be visited?: We haven't decided if we're starting in England (my brother and I have an aunt that lives there so we can make that home base) or Portugal yet. I say start in England and then travel through but whatever. We'll figure it out. Anyway, countries I know as of now that we'll be hitting are...

-England
-Ireland
-France
-Portugal
-Spain
-Germany
-Sweden, with a trip to Norway if we feel like it.
-Holland
-Denmark
-Italy
-Greece
-Switzerland
-Austria
-Czech Republic (Because you know Prague is the happening place to be right now. Especially since celebrities like Brad and Angelina glorified it so much.)
-Finland maybe as well as Poland maybe.

I'll update as soon as I know for sure. One of my brother's friends thought of the route to take and it definetly needs a little tweaking. Well maybe a lot of tweaking... It was a little too ambitious XD

P.S. Whoever wants to go, start saving your money NOW.

Currently listening : Silent Alarm By Bloc Party Release date: 22 March, 2005

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Well, here’s to Christmas...
Current mood: talkative

I'm not going to Orange for Christmas after all. My mom didn't want to go and was bitching about how we were going to leave her home alone for Christmas so we told her to come with us and that's when the real trouble started. We could have taken the dogs in the car with us to Orange but when you're on an 8 hour and up drive with dogs (8 hours and up because you have to stop when you have animals in the car for them to pee and whatnot), it doesn't seem worth it. Plus it really stresses out the animals too, and who wants hair flying everywhere and sticking to everything? Especially when you're a family that likes to wear the color black a lot. It's a real pain. 

We didn't want to put them in a kennel either because it would have cost up to about $600 or more for just 3 days and we would have been gone 5 days. And we don't really know the neighbors that well so we decided against that too.

And another problem. I haven't sent the stuff I wanted to in the mail yet for all of you who I told I would send you something for xmas... Sooo you might not get that stuff until after Christmas. Blah... I was hoping to be able to send it say yesterday or Thursday but that wasn't the case D: But hey, at least you'll get my joy and cheer, right? XD

Sorry guys.

P.S. The cards are a little smaller than expected because I handmade them. Unfortunately, I didn't have envelopes large enough to house the original size I wanted the cards to be so I had to cut them down to a smaller size. Just letting you all know :] XD

Currently listening : Nymphetamine By Cradle of Filth Release date: 28 September, 2004

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What I would like in a guy.
Current mood: crunk

There's so many MySpace questionaires that ask you what you like in the opposite sex or same sex or whatever so I figured I would put what I would like in a guy because those surveys can become pretty old, pretty fast. If the list sounds picky or if I sound like I'm describing a guy only available in my mind, you can leave, HAH.  [NOTE: The list may grow or shrink over time.]

1. He has to be taller than 5'5". 5'8" to 5'11" is preferred.

2. Ethnicity is not important. He can be black, white, asian whatever.

3. His parents have to accept me and I have to be able to get along with them as well.

4. Momma's boys need not apply, thank you.

5. Being smart is always a plus.

6. Common sense doesn't hurt.

7. Being musically inclined is a huge plus, epspecially if he can sing and/or play an instrument.

8. Art skills are great like drawing, painting, photography, sculpting, writing, etc.

9. One word- CREATIVE.

10. A sense of humor is most welcome.

11. He has to know when to be funny and when to be serious.

12. He can't be into hard drugs like meth or acid and other stuff like that.

13. No thug types. I don't like that "Ey mami" shit.

14. Long hair is a BIG turn on.

15. His body doesn't have to be "perfect" although a guy with a nice body is ALWAYS good.

16. A guy that cooks gets an A in my book. Then again, if he can't do it that well that's okay because I would do it for the both of us. But if a guy can make a mean cheesecake, I'm his forever.

17. Arrogance is a no-no.

18. As cliche as it sounds, a guy has to love me for who I am.

19. He has to respect my opinions and decisions as I will respect his.

20. Facial hair is not preferred. Shave and do a good job of it, thanks.

21. Piercings are cool. Piercings enjoyed are lip (on ring or snake bites) and ears. Piercings not enjoyed are tongue, spider bites, septum rings, nose bridge piercings, neck piercings, hand piercings, basically any piercings that sound absurd and piercings down below. I guess eyebrow piercings are alright.

22. He must be the same age or older than me. As of now ages 18-25 are good.

23. We MUST have things in commong such as having an interest in music, anime, manga, video games, likes, dislikes, etc.

24. Being able to drive is very important.

25. Having a job(s) is good.

26. He MUST have the balls to stand up to people INCLUDING his parents.

27. He MUST NOT be afraid to tell someone to go fuck themselves.

28. Raging alcoholics aren't sexy. A drink here and there is okay.

29. He must not have an issue with pre-marital sex, as long as he agrees to use protection.

30. Religion won't (or it won't try to) be judged. A guy can practice whatever as long as he or his family don't try to shove it down my throat.

31. He doesn't get freaked out by races that are not his own.

32. HE CANNOT BE FROM WISCONSIN. PERIOD.

33. Long distance relationships are shitty so living less than 45 minutes away is ideal. In fact, he should only live 20 minutes maximum away from me.

34. Online/phone relationships are just ridiculous.

35. HE MUST have a nice voice. If I find myself laughing while trying to talk to a guy, we're in trouble. No high voices, thank you.

36. Eye color and hair color doesn't matter.

37. Looks aren't everything but a guy's face must be fairly good looking.

38. He MUST have his own style of dress therefore if his mom pays for his clothes she CANNOT pick them out. Suggestions yes, but having mommy pick out your shirts, NO.

39. He MUST avoid using the phrase "I don't know" as often as possible.

40. He should or will try to spend a lot of time together with me.

41. He should not become obsessed with me and discuss the prospect of marriage or asking "Do you think we'll always be together forever?". He must realize that some things don't last forever.

42. He needs to have graduated high school and be in college or junior college.

43. He will not force me to change in any way for him.

44. He cannot be a wet blanket in any way.

45. If he doesn't drink occasionally, he should not be freaked out if I have a drink once in awhile or have friends that drink. Also, he cannot freak out if I tell him some of my friends smoke cigarettes or other things, even though I do not.

46. Bowl haircuts equal automatic rejection, lol. Sorry but I can't take you seriously with that absurdity on your head XD

47. He must have a good memory.

48. He shall not brag about the size of his wang, or gripe about it if it's too small or not to his liking. That shit is annoying.

49. He must know how to dance or at least know how to move to a beat.

50. He shouldn't be afraid to go out to public places like clubs or bars with me.

51. He must know how to kiss properly. Literally sucking face is not hot.

Currently listening : If It Shines, We Have It By Kawaii Release date: 16 November, 2004

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